Ergh...did I ever really know you...who is this person I see in-front of me now? :s

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I like Lilys cover of this song :)

I met someone extraordinary on Halloween.

As I stepped off the train and took my first glance of him my knees went weak, the butterflies tumbled in my stomach, this energy of excitement filled my body.

His eyes got bigger as he followed my every step, his smile wider, as we met his lips gently kissed me on the cheek and we walked off into what was the most amazing first date.

I have never met anyone so interesting, intelligent and fascinating...the magnetism between us was unreal. Our dated lasted eight hours and only ended as everywhere was closed as it was 4am. Two days later we had our second date and so on...

I guess I cared about you more than I thought :(

I can't believe you'd publicise;

'I do worry about how easily I find cutting people out of my life'

...was I meant to see this, even if you thought it why would you write it down and publish for all to see?

I put so much trust, love and time into you...you emotionally abused me, and yet still hurt me after it's over.

I read all our chat logs from the very beginning and got thinking about EVERYTHING we did together and said to each other...we used to be so happy, you used to miss me after an hour. I'd have this energy and buzz after seeing you and everyone commented on how happy I was.

*life event happens for you*

*life event happens for me* The energy dies, the buzz fades, our happiness is filled with our own internal sadness.