tired

I was a fucking idiot to think things would get better!!!

Why don't other people find life as hard as I do? I think about death everyday. I'm so overwhelmed. Everything is sooo hard. I don't know if I really want to die or if I just can't live. I want someone or something to strip me of all my responsibilities, all the pressure. If that is death then so be it.

this is for the people who went through trauma and didn’t come out of it with thicker skin. but, instead, came back with sensitivity to the world and a deep sadness that won’t go away. some of us went through something and lost a piece of ourselves; our broken hearts never healed quite right afterwards. i see you and i feel you and i am you. it’s going to be okay.

anyone else feel like they’re too damaged to be loved or is it just me

something will always be wrong with me. i will never be whole

I want to scream and cry and die, all at the same time. It feels like my heart is being squeezed and it hurts so fucking much but it’s also so empty at the same time. I just want everything to fucking stop.

I don't wish to die, rather I desire to not exist. To not have to experience this anymore. To never have been born. To go to sleep, forever. There is such bliss in nothingness, that I will never get to feel.