they is your best bet as a pronoun, but he is okay - some of us use she. mostly a figuring out my plurality/integration blog, and thoughts about our experiences
Please do not interact/follow if you post pro-ed content (like thinspo or meanspo) as that is triggering to see repetitively, as well as physical self harm. It's okay if you post about it occasionally and/or with tags (we're only publicly saying this because we can handle talking about it) but if it is like 99% of your blog I just can't do it. I wish you the best though!
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All pronouns in bio are acceptable collectively. You can say whatever comes more naturally to you.
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Hi! This is a work in progress pinned post, but essentially, this is blog is my journey with plurality. I just found my first alter after doing several sessions of emdr therapy and I am showing some possible symptoms of DID otherwise. I am open to the idea it might be not that at all, but I genuinely do feel like separate parts are being unearthed from my head and resonate with system terms so far. I'm currently working with a therapist on this (although I've been too scared to talk about this yet and generally overwhelmed), but I also want to talk about my thoughts and experiences, but I don't think I can be open about this to anyone in my life yet. This is just to document what comes out of all of this and maybe talk others going through a similar circumstance.
Sorry this is so long, I'll trim it down in the future.
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I'm new here and to plurality in general, so if I mess something up, please let me know. Some of our alters use pseudonyms. Most of us use he/him but e/em and they/them pronouns are also enjoyed collectively. Body is in our 20s, all alters seem to be above that or identify with it well enough.
We are audhd and have BPD. Our BPD is pretty well managed in therapy right now but some of us seem to hold more symptoms than others. Same with chronic pain.
We try to tag for triggers, but this blog will have thoughts about emdr, micro trauma, and possibly my more extreme trauma (pretty unlikely but possible).
TAG KEY (mostly for our reference:
post type:
🗒️ : journal
known consistent system members as of now (not all of them have posted and not every alter I suspect existing nessecarily):
🥣 : (unsure/more than one for sure)
🌿 : (butch (the host) or unrealized fragment that identifies the same)
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I can't tell if I'm dysphoric anymore. It hurts because I've worked so hard to transition this far. But it changes everyday. It's so hard to just feel okay with anything happening to my body but before hrt was even worse. I don't want to have to strive for androgyny now because I can't do it
You don't have to be that guy, by the way. Figured that out the hard way. Because you're not. The singletsona you cultivated is not you, because you are ALL the body's "you". You can be different things even every hour. It's okay to change your body. It's okay not to. Nothing was lost. Not everyone will feel at home no matter what you change. That's normal. Some things don't need to change. Some alters will never indentify with the body regardless of gender. Who cares. Ball regardless
haven't used this blog for a bit (for real this time) because of. A few things.
1. I moved out and broke up with my partner within a month (and we couldn't be happier despite the bittersweet nature of it)
2. Got a bunch of medical testing and more testing done
3. We are literally about to get top surgery now???
4. I don't know the login to this account and it's on my old phone that only charges at a specific angle LMAO
So if you want to interact with us anywhere else now that we're past the uh. Whole baby system phase (for the most part) I make comics on @hasmultidudes . I might be exchanging my url with that one eventually. I don't think I'll be posting here anymore
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Why is every other trans person reinventing the gender caste system. Why are you excluding a subsection of trans people from every goddman thing you say. We are all trans. We are all way too similar and I know you don't like it. But maybe it's fucking cruel to assume your experiences are not universal with most trans people. And stop buying into cis bullshit of our genders making us totally different creatures. Please.
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Adult ProTip, from a security professional: If a kid tells you, "My parents are gonna kill me / kick my ass / kick me out" for something relatively minor, don't respond with shit like "Really? ;) that sounds a little extreme, don't you think sweetie?" because that shit really does happen.
Instead, respond as though whatever threat they are afraid of is fully valid, and offer whatever you can do to help- ask if they believe they are in danger of being hurt in any way, and work accordingly.
If they're overreacting, they'll usually realize and dial it back, self-correct and begin thinking a bit more rationally.
If they're not overreacting, and the danger is real, then they'll need a level-headed adult in their corner, not another condescending authority figure who doesn't believe them.
when you think about it it's just kind of crazy how you can be neglected and abused your whole childhood instead of experiencing a brief moment of being taken care of while learning how to be a person, and then once you're an adult it's like ok now i'm still essentially raising myself in a shitty situation but this time my adult peers are like mad at me because i'm not as emotionally healthy as them, and on top of that i still have to save my own life
also sick of being condescendingly told "nobody's coming to save you, you have to save yourself" as if i'm not painfully aware of that as i have been doing this shit my whole life but i just want somewhere safe to rest momentarily without my life falling apart
Actually so fucking sick of having to be a person all I want to do is curl up up with them and hide away from everything for at least a little while please dear god
you have to grit your teeth and bear it and you have to interrupt your thought patterns and you have to crosscheck negative thoughts with reality and whether or not that has anything to do with value(it doesnt) and you have to not let it slip. and then yeah one day you realize you feel fine 90% of the time. and then you work to keep it that way
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I can't tell if I'm dysphoric anymore. It hurts because I've worked so hard to transition this far. But it changes everyday. It's so hard to just feel okay with anything happening to my body but before hrt was even worse. I don't want to have to strive for androgyny now because I can't do it
Maybe one day we'll all become one person and this chapter of our life will be said and done but for right now it consumes everything everyday. I want us to be able to explain why today everything is so different than yesterday. I want to hangout with people and not be seen as someone I'm not and have to be fine with that. I wish I felt like it was safe and normal to talk about my inner life because nobody even understands how mundane it is. I wish I wasn't layers and layers deep even if I choose to be honest with who I am. I just wish I wasn't this one fucking guy that I'm not for the rest of my life
they should make a version of socializing that doesn’t make you feel like you’re still the weird 12 year old kid that doesn’t know why she’s not normal like the other kids
it is past time we jettisoned the useless false dichotomy of introversion vs. extroversion and just accepted that everybody has a minimum amount of social interaction, failing which, they get really weird. and everybody has a maximum amount of social interaction, exceeding which, they get really weird. these levels are different for everyone, for a variety of reasons, and have no moral dimension. and that is all.
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Believe it or not, your internalized ableism probably DOES rub off onto others without you realizing it. I have always had extreme pain while walking ever since I could remember. My parents constantly told me it was because I never exercised enough, so I learned to just shut it down and be quiet.
I catch myself feeling weird and confused when someone else, “can’t just be quiet and suck it up too.” However, I never want to perpetuate that onto someone.
I remember how it felt to be holding back tears as it felt like my bones were going to snap. I remember how it felt when I stepped wrong and had to hold back a scream. That wasn’t fair to me, and it will never be fair to others.
Sometimes dismantling your self hate dismantles all hate.
