Hayley

im lazy & drunk and need to shedtwt rn but dont wanna get banned for posting myself on passgen or something so

found a old chain bracelet my mother got me for a birthday or christmas some time ago in my closet, forgot i had it

i kinda like it even tho it’s bit tacky and immature, i don’t own a lot of jewellery this is one few things. part because permanent manmoder and any femininity looks ridiculous and more honnish on me

i didn’t answer this one

hair looks nice!

im just using it for a diary that people can publicly look at if they want, which ig i’ve always done, but probably with less venting and personal misery this time

thank you, people on twitter keep telling me it’s shit and a main part why my looks are lacking and that i should get it cut into an actual style - but i am malebrained & malesoul’d and know nothing about hair or fashion or styling so am not going to do that obviously

i don’t know if that’s a real subreddit but i didn’t find it so assume you were making fun of countttt which is pretty sneedy, 4tran in general is sneedy now & mostly normies and a shell of its former self years ago tbh

idk how bad 4t4 is anymore i don’t really use it since it’s sneedification and defending piv more etc i still post on the board somewhat but that’s also taken over by shartyfags & polcucks and bottom chasers posting the same bait repeatedly so less than i did

many, probably most, mtf transitioners i think nowadays do tend to be way less dysphoric and more hypersexual and sex pesty, part because it’s way more popular nowadays and criticism of anything in mainstream spaces is shut down so a lot of rapehons are just autistic incel social outcasted males trying to find a escape and supportive in group community that then itself because of that & culture is itself really hyper sexual so feeds back into it & makes it worse, when i still looked into old sneed mtf dominated spaces there was another sexual assault allegation and drama every couple weeks, i think because its pretty hard to be able to criticise those issues and the hypersexual culture without being told to just shut up and called a bigot or prude immediately etc

they’re called pooners, poon being a term meaning vagina, a caricature style of meme character to represent trans men in exaggerated styles common to the /lgbt/ 4chan board

they were coined/created by a particular trans man from the board, at least usually attributed to him, then adopted by & often used by other dysphoric 4chan adjacent & using ftms to self depreciate and portray & vent dysphoria through grotesque absurdist exaggerated humour, dood is a phrase attributed to them to make fun about how trans men tend to use word dude to refer to men & each other more than the average cis man

the pink colour is a trait of pooner artstyle because ftms on testosterone tend to develop a pinkish reddish skin tone from increased blood pressure and vascularity & exaggerated as part of it

i actually like this picture of myself oddly lol it’s very anglefagged admittedly, but the wind sweeping my hair and sun hitting it was oddly scenic like some photoshoot or movie thing & besides ending up too nervous and frustrated to go a walk from from fear of getting laughed at or made fun of again or worse because my hair length it was a nice moment to sit out in the early morning sun & cool breeze and air not being too cold

when i was a really young kid i used to go to my aunts house down the street from my grandparents a lot, the neighbours next door had a really short chain link fence you could see easily through and a big shaggy dog like this breed

everytime me & it were outside together and saw each item we’d run from opposite ends of each garden beside each other and race until we both got too tired, dog always seemed to like it and was really happy, i started viewing it as a personal friend, partly as we always played and saw each other every time and looked for each other & i was more acting like a dog/wolf as a kid so found it easier to interact with than people

did this & talked to it a few years and we bonded as friends until my parents stopped taking me to my aunts anymore as much, it was when i was about 6 or so maybe younger honestly

i can’t remember the dogs sex or name unfortunately, max or bailey i think, would be really ironic if was bailey because of the similarity to hayley years later even tho it had no effect on my name choice

friday fit

plus my lunch from earlier finished, bacon flavour super noodles & chips

I want to kiss it, lick it, bite it and blow strawberries on your stomach.