#whatever idk

and this

ilya saying boring to mean safe. always the same, always there. reliable, dependable. in a game where your life can switch in an instant with a win or a loss or a trade or an injury? shane hollander is boring. reliable. dependable. always there. ilya’s “boring” meaning safe, shane giving him space to exist simply as he is without the chaos of his family and his reputation. “boring” with a fridge of ginger ale and prepped food.

shane being uncomfortable with ilya. shane needing to be told to “ask nicely”. shane hesistating in the las vegas scene. ilya’s “need what?” in the las vegas scene. shane asking twice “should we talk first”? ilya holding shane’s face to make him look at him. ilya making shane uncomfortable in the most comforting way, pushing him out of this perfectly crafted life he’s had and showing him how freeing it is to just Exist. shane being able to feel discomfort around ilya with the “is still okay?” “is okay?” “is good?” because despite the discomfort and newness of it all, shane is Safe.