OLD PINE

•I got a new job so I only have to work at a store where people scream at me daily like 10 hrs a week now and the other 30 I now do something a lot better / less stressful / a real job making more money •I've been learning more with woodworking and everyday I learn something new and I love it very much and I want to pursue it more •I'm very in love as I have been for the last two years and it just gets better and better and I am so so happy every little thing even the bad things have lead me to him. It's a cliche I understand now. It's amazing how being in a healthy loving relationship with your best friend feels. •I'm still very directionless / lost with my life / I miss so many people but things are really really looking up, and they have been gradually for the last year (thank fake god) so I'm thankful even though I'm still very stressed

I've been very lucky my whole life and I never had to deal with sexual assault or even much harassment besides the occasional catcall etc until this month and I've had several incidents of harassment / men making me feel uncomfortable and unsafe and it's all happening at once and I have a permanent pit in my stomach lately. For the first time I'm dealing with the paranoia and anxiety that comes with men you trusted, liked, thought you're friends with, treating you like shit and I know I'm not even dealing with the worst of it compared to most women. I'm just being harassed and it makes my stomach hurt every time I have to go into work. I can't even imagine what sexual assault survivors feel but my whole body hurts for them.