sam finding a case so he could spend time with dean because dean hadn’t left his room in a week. dean also wanting to spend time with sam but can’t do it as normal because their home is full of strangers. dean noticing sam shaved his beard after complaining about it and feeling euphoric knowing sam did that #forhim to #pleasehim so he can go back to visualizing sam as a woman. they arrive on the case and dean instantly compares newly shaven sam to the pretty female cashier with the same bob cut hairstyle, same tucking her hair behind the ears mannerisms, and him acknowledging he studies sam often by saying the woman has the same soft and delicate features with luxurious hair sam does

i can just imagine martyr sammy letting dean use him as a punching bag when he’s upset because “i cant feel anymore dean”

Sam lost the rabbits foot. Hes bumbling around breaking shit. He needs help getting down the stairs without falling. His knees are bloody and stuck full of dirt. He slipped in the shower. He fell and busted his lip. He asks for help getting his shoes on. Dean’s so hard he could pass out

​sam who fantasises about dying tragically because the only love he’s ever seen is mourning