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april: color theory (part i)
a chromatic syllabus
"what is color in poetry" by dorothea lasky
essay on the relationship between color and poetry by the poet dorothea lasky, containing poems and musings on how color is chosen and described in the imagination.
color series from my private property by mary ruefle
series of pieces scattered through poet mary ruefle's collection my private property detailing the sadnesses of colors. in the book's acknowledgements section ruefle writes: "in each of the color pieces, if you substitute the word happiness for the word sadness, nothing changes."
chroma by derek jarman
a series of essays on color by the british filmmaker derek jarman, written in the year before his death from aids-related illness. the essays combine history, literature, and the work of color theorists with the author's memories and emotional experiences. the essay "into the blue" is also the text of jarman's 1993 film blue.
remarks on color by ludwig wittgenstein
a fragmented treatise on color by the german philosopher ludwig wittgenstein, focusing especially on the vexing relationship between color and language. like chroma, remarks on color was also written shortly before the author's death.
interaction of color by josef albers
contains many of the exercises, assignments, and discussions taught by the artist josef albers in his classes on color. also available as an ipad app.
essays on color from cabinet magazine
a collection of essays from cabinet magazine's colors column, where each week a contributor is assigned a specific color. a few i like are "red" by maggie nelson (p. 164), "white" by joseph grigley (p. 118), "violet" by daniel handler (p. 106), and "amber" by mark bradley (p. 168).
"the sea was never blue" by maria michela stassi
essay beginning with the notion that there is no word for pure blue in ancient greek, expanding on how "chromatic cultures" are reflected in language.
To lament the fact of your lamentations in English, English being your first defeat To finally admit out loud then I want to go home To stand outside your grandmother’s house To know, for example, that in Farsi the present perfect is called the relational past, and is used at times to describe a historic event whose effect is still relevant today, transcending the past To say, for example, Shah dictator bude-ast translates to The Shah was a dictator, but more literally to The Shah is was a dictator To have a tense of is-was, the residue of it over the clear bulb of your eyes To walk cemetery after cemetery in these States and nary a gravestone reading Solmaz To know no nation will be home until one does To do this in order to do the other thing, the wild thing, though you’ve forgotten what it was
— Solmaz Sharif, from “The Master’s House”
love the complexity of the opening Taem at the piano -- interpreting is not easy at all, is he a prisoner (the collar)? a robber (the mask)? is he a knight, a soldier (the upper part of his mask, with the mesh and the little sword insignia, evokes a war, battle, a knight, a soldier)?
over his mouth, the mask has stitching that represents muting, binding, perhaps his only recourse then, his only ability to speak is the piano playing, his music
as he plays, a very sudden shot of inner taemin (hotel taemin, taemin in color) covering his ears-- (he's being controlled, manipulated through music, or perhaps it's symbolic of the struggle b/t black and white keys?) -- (later, the lyrics say "it rings in my ears")
the white-washed industrial warehouse of rolls of receipts? long strips of paper? evokes the white cloth korean shamans use often to represent the path from this world to the next world/to god. but these ritual are communal, so are the we participants? are we sending those over to him in hopes that he will return to us? is he perhaps in purgatory, in some stasis, is he perhaps navigating resurrection?
resurrected taemin is the one in the thorn jacket -- Thorn (Jesus) Taem appears during the first chorus to symbolize a cohesion between black and white, note the dancer outfits being black and white. The straps on his trousers signify both his unbinding, but the possibility of being rebound (also, it has a biblical resurrection feel ala Lazarus)
"And he who had died came out bound hand and foot with graveclothes, and his face was wrapped with a cloth. Jesus said to them, “Loose him, and let him go.”" (John 11:44, new king james vers)
(note also that later masked taemin has a variation of thorns on his jacket, though he's showing a naked torso, and the two dance "together" during the chorus)
the one in the car is hotel taemin (colorful taem! in tatters!), the zoom into his eye (the gaze, the eye tattoo, we the viewer into his eye, watching him as he watches us back, the pearls trailing from his eye, ascribing tears, innocence...) -- demonstrative both how he's obviously too large for his heart / insides / cage ("trapped in a corner") and the blue lighting ("my heart gets less saturated") that illuminates the hotel room (which attains a sense of sterility because of this despite some more elaborate and personal furnishings), though hotel room implies a temporary space, often an escape, a holiday, though here, it has the sense of a prison due to the smallness, and then duplicates of himself in uncomfortable positions, trying to make himself "at home" -- wouldn't be a taemin song without duplicates!! also gripping at his face with his bronzed (bloodied?) hands and watching us watch him....
and he's escaping in the car ("complete the cruel history" -- a diana reference? some korean celeb reference? car crashing celebs escaping paps or fans? a car being a space of movement but also protection for artists? keys needed to get into a car, to drive the car? the brief glimpses we get of him in the car are rather paparazzi-ish, at odd angles, zoom in up close...) to freedom and the crash we see twice, which is really interesting, the first time a forewarning (that we've pushed him to do this, he'd rather die than have us "get the keys to [his] lock"), the second with the glass shards referencing the glass mask at the beginning... and obviously we know he's going to crash from very early on, as hotel taemin (jacket shed) is dancing in front of the totalled car (also the eerie interspersed images of other taemins that flash by at 0:42)
and we pretty clearly see that in the image of him in stasis, in the red / sunset background (womb-like), it's Thorn Taem who gets resurrected...so hotel taemin (inner taemin) ==> Thorn Taemin and the choreography/poses so clearly ties all the different taemins together, like, this is all him, each part of him, he's narrating this part as "creepy, the drama you wanted" and walking alone as thorn taemin, the dancers in white and black are mirroring each other, and he reaches the piano and the lyrics say, as one who doesn't have to "cover his ears" (unlike hotel taemin!!)-- and then a very deliberate return to opening masked taemin!!!! so piano man is the narrator all along, the conductor, the mastermind, though we may or may not have viewed him as trapped, as prisoner
contrary to our initial expectations, he's still the mastermind of his image, he's built the "torso" that he's kicked down, despite seeming like a prisoner, he's actually the one "shoot[ing] the one advice" in a directorial sense...his hands are soiled in ink, his nude torso (torso -- bust, an idealized, sculpted version of him that others seek) is marred by the blackening calligraphic strokes, but the implication is that this is his real torso, that he did this to himself, he chose what we could and couldn't see (he hides, for example, his hip tattoo here) -- as in the person he's controlling, his "inner taemin" is just an abstraction of him, a torso (bust), that he's showing us
then he removes the hat and has the makeup spiking (thorning) smeared down his eyes, it's very joker but also very very jesus wept for the humans, he has a collar here too, it's like asserting again he's the director of the show and he'll show you his goddamn tattoos only if he wants to. (also echoes opening Taemin, who also removes his mask at that line v early on -- "i'll shoot that one advice" -- and the shirted opening taemin who has pearl tears along his eyes)
and the last scene is so good the obvious christ pose, being covered in white, half naked, car scene, he's not fully covered in white, there's definitely a feeling that the white is not "cleansing" him but COVERING him, MASKING him insufficiently with the colors we try to push onto him, guilt, innocence, whatever
resurrected / thorn taem is the taemin through which we see hotel taemin/innter taemin in it-- this is an intentionally cyclical narrative, particularly with the crashed car being seen so early on and the "memory blur" of other taemins ("complete the cruel history" with the stuttering steering motion), everything is set up as a reference to force the viewer to watch again and again and again so we might be more imaginative, break him apart again
scattering of extra thoughts after rambling on w/ the inimitable @theroastedmoon
perspective as the viewer: forced to look at what taemin wants us to see (diorama), constant and unsettling acknowledgement of our gaze
lights == the paper/fabric in the warehouse == shamanistic possession
when they initially appear, the lights are going haywire, disorganized, an active representation of the chaos in the warehouse
later, during the (bridge? "creepy" resurrection) scene, the light is drawing together behind him, gathering as an aura, a portal or road leading towards death, the afterlife, god
instead of using strictly black and white, as expected from the teasers and chess metaphors, the colors that stand out are blue & red: representative of the taeguk 태극 i.e. "yin and yang", eum & yang -- red being positive forces, blue being opposing negative forces, locking together to represent the harmony of the two in the universe. one cannot exist without the other, they are interdependent.
in a very reductive interpretation, chaotic energy of the universe is organized into eum & yang and give rise to forms, to us
often used together in his clothes, in the lights, which flicker from blue to red, the blue-saturated lighting,
there's also no shortage of yellow ==> samtaeguk 삼태극 a variation on taeguk with yellow (red, blue, yellow == heavens, earth, people)
yellow being indicative of the "people", yellow being the color of the headlights as he crashes, the lamps in the hotel room, yellow being our gaze... (what use is heaven and earth if people are not there to see it?)
the purple (red + blue) during rebirth /resurrection
taemin as the shaman killing and resurrecting his various identities (supreme! taemin being the manifestation of the shaman, esp with his expressionless tears-- he's the conduit through which things are happening through dancing, singing, he's god here)
interspersed with unmasked intro taemin (very clearly linked w/ masked intro taemin-- he transforms from one into the other through a blur of lights), who wears a necklace evoking "tribal"-ness + his solitary performative dancing (his direct gaze) + the pearl beading around his eyes (tears?) contrasted with supreme! taemin’s black tears
+ thorn taemin (pastel lights behind him) + strange glimpses of lights, colors, trance-like
the white paint in strips, who was channeled, rebirthed, resurrected, who was doing the resurrecting

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Against a peculiarly Western allergy to the pleasure of the text SUMANA ROY
In the essays my students write, I have begun to notice a common pattern. They are structured almost like Aesop’s fables. A moral seems necessary at the end — a kind of wrapping up, whichever way one chooses to look at it, like a prayer of gratitude after a meal, or an antacid tablet to aid the digestive process. Occasionally, I notice this in their poems as well, how the concluding lines must justify the existence of the lines preceding them. I have begun calling it “moralitis.” Without a text’s display of morality, we seem to be at a loss about how to justify its existence.
I offer these summaries as an outsider. I wasn’t born in America or England, and I wasn’t a participant in, or even a contemporary observer of, Anglophone literature departments. I am a postcolonial citizen reading the white world reading.
I notice what has been well-documented: How the creation of “area studies,” its support coming from espionage funds of the American government, led to the incorporation of literatures from these unknown cultures into white literature departments. I use “white” in the most matter-of-fact, self-evident way, without anger. That was what it was, a crowd of white writers, primarily male, squatting on syllabi for decades. They had written about things that struck their fancy: elephants, women, mountains, wars, a cup of tea, a day in the life of an unremarkable person. The syllabus-makers had legitimized their wandering. It was all right, the white writer could write about anything.
The expectation of the nonwhite writers was different. They were to be tour guides to their cultures, burdened with satisfying the intellectual curiosity of the white world. As Amit Chaudhuri wrote in his essay “I Am Ramu,” published in n+1, “The important European novelist makes innovations in the form; the important Indian novelist writes about India. This is a generalization, and not one that I believe. But it represents an unexpressed attitude that governs some of the ways we think of literature today. … The American writer has succeeded the European writer. The rest of us write of where we come from.”
In India — where I now teach in the English and creative-writing department at Ashoka University, about 45 kilometers from the capital city of New Delhi — what began with Salman Rushdie and Amitav Ghosh and Vikram Seth performing their roles as researchers for this new reader soon turned into a habit. Rushdie had tried to bring the linguistic energy of a whole culture into his representation of the Indian nation; Ghosh a Stephen Greenblatt-influenced understanding of history into the historical novel; Seth a sentimental appraisal of an India that had now disappeared. They were ambassadors of the Indian nation, often thought to be “representing” India just as artists and performers represented it in Festival of India programs abroad.
This wasn’t, of course, what Seth and Ghosh and Rushdie had set out to do; it was just how their work had been appropriated by this new and foreign readership. At the same time, any writer — or any text — that did not fulfill the purpose of national ambassador risked being ignored or rejected by the academics — whether in India or abroad — who were designing courses about postcolonial Indian literature.
The consequences of this are far-reaching. I looked at a sampling of English-literature question papers in Indian universities, primarily in the country’s provinces, where an American understanding of Indian writing has been imported without any skepticism or unease — this despite professors teaching courses on power and imperialism. Courses have titles like “Indian Writing in English,” “Postcolonial Literature,” “Indian Literature in Translation,” “Commonwealth Literature.” The questions asked of the students are revealing. “Analyze Amitav Ghosh’s The Shadow Lines as a critique of the nation-state”; “Write a note on Velutha as a Dalit character in Arundhati Roy’s The God of Small Things”; “Discuss Things Fall Apart as a postcolonial novel.”
By contrast, in the same departments, William Blake was being studied as “a precursor to the Romantics,” W.B. Yeats as “the last Romantic,” John Donne as “a metaphysical poet,” Virginia Woolf as “a stream-of-consciousness novelist,” and so on. If the contrast in the pedagogical approaches to the “third world” literatures and Euro-American literatures is still not evident, one can just jog down to the early British literature paper, and then to the Renaissance.
Postcolonial texts seem to have two jobs in these syllabi: They either negatively illustrate some form of moral or social misconduct, or they positively represent a “marginalized” culture or geography. Ideally, they do both at once, often in the manner of a Live Aid concert. The genre chosen for such illustrative purposes is most often the Indian English novel and, occasionally, the Indian novel in English translation..
While academics often see themselves as correcting the oversights of mainstream publishing, in this case, the two have colluded, even if unconsciously. Just as Indian professors feel a responsibility to assign “representative” texts, so within Indian English publishing, editors and publishers — beneficiaries of various kinds of privilege — have felt a moral responsibility to present and represent those they considered left out of their understanding of literature. That category included the Dalit, the Adivasi tribes, occasionally women. To publish these “unknown” and “unheard stories” — phrases that attend many of the blurbs of books about these cultures and people — is their version of affirmative action, almost akin to wearing hand-loom textiles to register their support for the poor weaver.
This enterprise has had consequences besides the intended ones. The “Adivasi” and “Dalit” writers these publishers championed became just that to the reading public: one picked up a book by such a writer to become a better person. Juries giving prizes followed the same path: By giving a literary prize to someone they had identified as a subaltern, they were in fact trying to give the prize to the community the writer came from. This is the neoliberal’s version of the subaltern-studies project.
I have heard from some of these writers about their dissatisfaction in being read as Dalit writers alone. Manoranjan Byapari, for instance, tells me that, although he has benefited from the largess of intent, he and others want to be read as writers, like upper-class and upper-caste writers are — not given attention solely because of their status as disadvantaged. It is not difficult to see that this was a mimicry of what had happened in the West: the Indian writers’ responsibility to represent their nation had metamorphosed, here, into “marginalized” writers’ responsibility to represent their “local culture.”
Like the soldier fighting for the country, these writers are seen as fighting for their culture. (This attitude also explains why translation, a field ignored for decades, has suddenly become a moral mission — we must bring the “underrepresented” into the range of vision, even if it is only the range of vision of the English-reading world.) Meanwhile, choosing what books to read becomes itself a moralistic enterprise, a form of atonement. One must read postcolonial literatures to pay the guilt tax. It is a reading toll that the student of the white-literature syllabus is not asked to pay.
But the proliferation of readers who seem to have become addicted to paying this tax has created a new kind of marginalized literature: literature that does not serve the didactic purposes of the postcolonial survey course. For one thing, the postcolonial-literature syllabus continues to remain parasitic on the novel — it is as if our histories could only be held in the form of the novel, usually a fat novel, its girth approximately proportionate to the size of the country. The poem and the essay have been rendered minor forms here. Fragmentary and whimsical in nature, personal and private in style, they offer no assistance in the information-supplying service that the postcolonial syllabus is expected to perform. The few poets who are studied, if at all, have been given a place on the syllabus for their founding-father status. Unlike the novel, where new work is regularly called for duty on the syllabus, contemporary poetry (say, Indian English poetry) might be imagined to have gone extinct.
The same question should be asked of the postcolonial syllabus. While the moralizing mission might appear admirable, these courses ignore all literature that does not fit its agenda. What else explains the utter absence of comic novels in the postcolonial course? How else to explain why Bibhutibhushan Bandyopadhyay’s novels, particularly Aranyak, are not taught? Or why Amit Chaudhuri’s novels, with their life-loving energy, do not find a place here? Or why stories and novellas about provincial life, such as we find in the magical writing of R.K. Narayan, have not yet been included? Literature about the moment, about the everyday, is rejected: Comedy, laughter, pleasure — the postcolonial subject must not be seen partaking of these contraband things. The syllabus often reminds me of what our hostel matron used to say: Don’t smile and show your teeth when praying.
Here is the space where the syllabus remains to be decolonized — not through substitution, but addition. A course on British modernism will include a novel or two about a day in the life of a white man or woman, such as we find in James Joyce’s Ulysses and Virginia Woolf’s Mrs. Dalloway. But a young Indian student’s life on a day in July — masturbating, thinking of becoming a “famous poet,” walking around London with his uncle, eating at a restaurant and fighting with him, as we find in Amit Chaudhuri’s comic novel Odysseus Abroad — is judged too self-indulgent for a postcolonial course, even as it is not hard to see that this life in the novel, if anything, is the postcolonial subject’s condition.
What I am seeking is for the postcolonial-literature reading list to be liberated from its current status as “minor literature.” I do not use this term like Deleuze does, but rather to describe the sense within English-literature departments that these are to be studied as Ur-manifestos and histories of repression and suffering, and that all other kinds of writing are to suffer the same fate as banned literature: to remain ignored and unread. A course on Modernism, for instance, should include writing and art from non-Western cultures, where books exist side by side, related by temperament, aesthetic, or form, and not because of a United Nations idea of representation.
Literature in the postcolonial syllabus should surprise the student, not just confirm and illustrate “theories.” This, too, should be part of the decolonizing-the-syllabus mission: to dismantle the binary between postcolonial writers as content writers and Western writers as experimenters with form. Only then can we begin to address the “moralitis” of my students, which, although it might seem at first harmless, or even praiseworthy, turns out to entail a troubling indifference to pleasure and beauty, to ananda (joy and delight), which is often the backbone of India’s modern literatures.
love the complexity of the opening Taem at the piano -- interpreting is not easy at all, is he a prisoner (the collar)? a robber (the mask)? is he a knight, a soldier (the upper part of his mask, with the mesh and the little sword insignia, evokes a war, battle, a knight, a soldier)?
over his mouth, the mask has stitching that represents muting, binding, perhaps his only recourse then, his only ability to speak is the piano playing, his music
as he plays, a very sudden shot of inner taemin (hotel taemin, taemin in color) covering his ears-- (he's being controlled, manipulated through music, or perhaps it's symbolic of the struggle b/t black and white keys?) -- (later, the lyrics say "it rings in my ears")
the white-washed industrial warehouse of rolls of receipts? long strips of paper? evokes the white cloth korean shamans use often to represent the path from this world to the next world/to god. but these ritual are communal, so are the we participants? are we sending those over to him in hopes that he will return to us? is he perhaps in purgatory, in some stasis, is he perhaps navigating resurrection?
resurrected taemin is the one in the thorn jacket -- Thorn (Jesus) Taem appears during the first chorus to symbolize a cohesion between black and white, note the dancer outfits being black and white. The straps on his trousers signify both his unbinding, but the possibility of being rebound (also, it has a biblical resurrection feel ala Lazarus)
"And he who had died came out bound hand and foot with graveclothes, and his face was wrapped with a cloth. Jesus said to them, “Loose him, and let him go.”" (John 11:44, new king james vers)
(note also that later masked taemin has a variation of thorns on his jacket, though he's showing a naked torso, and the two dance "together" during the chorus)
the one in the car is hotel taemin (colorful taem! in tatters!), the zoom into his eye (the gaze, the eye tattoo, we the viewer into his eye, watching him as he watches us back, the pearls trailing from his eye, ascribing tears, innocence...) -- demonstrative both how he's obviously too large for his heart / insides / cage ("trapped in a corner") and the blue lighting ("my heart gets less saturated") that illuminates the hotel room (which attains a sense of sterility because of this despite some more elaborate and personal furnishings), though hotel room implies a temporary space, often an escape, a holiday, though here, it has the sense of a prison due to the smallness, and then duplicates of himself in uncomfortable positions, trying to make himself "at home" -- wouldn't be a taemin song without duplicates!! also gripping at his face with his bronzed (bloodied?) hands and watching us watch him....
and he's escaping in the car ("complete the cruel history" -- a diana reference? some korean celeb reference? car crashing celebs escaping paps or fans? a car being a space of movement but also protection for artists? keys needed to get into a car, to drive the car? the brief glimpses we get of him in the car are rather paparazzi-ish, at odd angles, zoom in up close...) to freedom and the crash we see twice, which is really interesting, the first time a forewarning (that we've pushed him to do this, he'd rather die than have us "get the keys to [his] lock"), the second with the glass shards referencing the glass mask at the beginning... and obviously we know he's going to crash from very early on, as hotel taemin (jacket shed) is dancing in front of the totalled car (also the eerie interspersed images of other taemins that flash by at 0:42)
and we pretty clearly see that in the image of him in stasis, in the red / sunset background (womb-like), it's Thorn Taem who gets resurrected...so hotel taemin (inner taemin) ==> Thorn Taemin and the choreography/poses so clearly ties all the different taemins together, like, this is all him, each part of him, he's narrating this part as "creepy, the drama you wanted" and walking alone as thorn taemin, the dancers in white and black are mirroring each other, and he reaches the piano and the lyrics say, as one who doesn't have to "cover his ears" (unlike hotel taemin!!)-- and then a very deliberate return to opening masked taemin!!!! so piano man is the narrator all along, the conductor, the mastermind, though we may or may not have viewed him as trapped, as prisoner
contrary to our initial expectations, he's still the mastermind of his image, he's built the "torso" that he's kicked down, despite seeming like a prisoner, he's actually the one "shoot[ing] the one advice" in a directorial sense...his hands are soiled in ink, his nude torso (torso -- bust, an idealized, sculpted version of him that others seek) is marred by the blackening calligraphic strokes, but the implication is that this is his real torso, that he did this to himself, he chose what we could and couldn't see (he hides, for example, his hip tattoo here) -- as in the person he's controlling, his "inner taemin" is just an abstraction of him, a torso (bust), that he's showing us
then he removes the hat and has the makeup spiking (thorning) smeared down his eyes, it's very joker but also very very jesus wept for the humans, he has a collar here too, it's like asserting again he's the director of the show and he'll show you his goddamn tattoos only if he wants to. (also echoes opening Taemin, who also removes his mask at that line v early on -- "i'll shoot that one advice" -- and the shirted opening taemin who has pearl tears along his eyes)
and the last scene is so good the obvious christ pose, being covered in white, half naked, car scene, he's not fully covered in white, there's definitely a feeling that the white is not "cleansing" him but COVERING him, MASKING him insufficiently with the colors we try to push onto him, guilt, innocence, whatever
resurrected / thorn taem is the taemin through which we see hotel taemin/innter taemin in it-- this is an intentionally cyclical narrative, particularly with the crashed car being seen so early on and the "memory blur" of other taemins ("complete the cruel history" with the stuttering steering motion), everything is set up as a reference to force the viewer to watch again and again and again so we might be more imaginative, break him apart again
I have just thought of a telling point. As the director/creator, you never changed your position on one thing in any of your four films. You have always been on the “losing side” (du côté des perdants), favouring the ‘loser’, the ordinary person, the despicable individual or, to put it another way, you saw the humanity in the despised.
This may speak to my personality and some of my deepest thoughts. I think there is dignity, nobility in the most despised people which is not recognized, not understood by other people. The kind of nobility which is beyond mainstream morality. Those people may not conform to the conventions of daily life, may not want to exist within mainstream moral standards. They are easily cast aside, but they actually need more understanding and sympathy. I like to let the losers prove themselves, transcend convention. It may still seem dark, not bright enough, but deep down in their heart, maybe there is ecstasy; they achieve the power only they themselves can appreciate.
This is not a condescending sympathy coming from above. This is exposure: maybe there is something far more noble.
Because there are often flaws in our values. In the creative process, sometimes one has to go against the value system, to show people that even the most despicable individuals, even the darkest events, can possess something they cannot have imagined. Maybe this is akin to chivalry and loyalty, on a spiritual level.
Or you could compare it to “justice”? Considering all of your films, there is a gradual change of the theme: the first two films were leaning towards legal justice (the crime of the con artist in Uniform and the death sentence in The Night Train), and the latter two films were about a more humane justice, a justice of humanity.
The story originated from the fear and desires deep inside me. You mentioned the execution in The Night Train. In fact, I am scared of death. I often dream of being executed. For some unknown reason, I was very motivated to write that script. It was finished in two months. There wasn’t much revision before the shooting of the film. As for The Wild Goose Lake, I was thinking of the chivalrous characters, their lives in the bottom levels of society. They are being hunted. This kind of existence fits the picture of modern chivalry. Chivalry in the 21st century, chivalry in the perspective of the law or of the criminal wanted by the police. In the Tang Dynasty, they might all have been knights. Liu Aiai might have been a courtesan then. At the end of the day, this is a story about chivalry and loyalty.
Diao Yunan (Interview with Wang Muyan, Film Comment)
Those who can’t get what they want, who are not satisfied with the way things are, make the change themselves. The way to escape their fate is to find a “double.” That is also a distinctive feature of your films: the police uniform in Uniform; the double lives in Night Train; and the simple “double” in Black Coal, Thin Ice and in The Wild Goose Lake…
There is also “acting” in life. Sometimes what is expressed outwardly of the inner self is a form of acting. I like this method. Because it reflects the desire to break the chains of daily life, to break the rules, the limits. It’s a kind of release. Everyone needs release. It could be painting for the artist, starting a war for a politician. But the average person without any talent or power will have to find another way to achieve release. They may do things that are outlandish, shocking even. In so doing, they provide material for novels, theater and film. The violence in the films is also a form of release sometimes. Films could be seen as dreams; they can provide the release for us.
Diao Yunan (Interview with Wang Muyan, Film Comment)
I understand. A muted romance? This is also a constant in your work. There is a sense of fate, or the sense that “we cannot change fate,” which connects your work to film noir.
It is romance. I always thought that the saying “drop the knife, and become Buddha” should be “pick up the knife, to become Buddha.” What has Buddha to do with average people who have never picked up the knife in their lives? Nothing. But those people who picked up the “knife” in the dark, they really need the light of Buddha to guide them, and they are closest to the Buddha. Love is the same. I am not sure if I have expressed myself clearly. There is a sense of fate, including the scene with the lighter at the end. She wants to smoke the cigarette in the car. That is an expression of fate as a circle, which is how I feel when I watch film noir.
Diao Yunan (Interview with Wang Muyan, Film Comment)

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We discussed the deeper emotions earlier, and now the ambiguous human relationships. It all reminds me of a common trait or theme in all of your work. It may seem sentimental, but love seems forever an illusion in your work, it is essentially impossible. Love exists because of loneliness. In Uniform, in The Night Train, continuing with Black Coal, Thin Ice, and now in this film. I could go on…
Maybe life is an illusion, not to mention love… Love is an illusion, which is not to say that love is not real. In fact, the period of time two people are truly in love is quite short in relation to the length of their lives. The rest of the time, they are just together, albeit through all the various possible scenarios. Sometimes, true love is impossible, unattainable. Maybe the love of two people apart is the most real, the most significant. Maybe I understand things differently. Maybe two people not together, who cannot be together, who are separated absolutely and forever, in such a case, is there true love?
Diao Yunan (Interview with Wang Muyan, Film Comment)
The Wild Goose Lake 南方车站的聚会 (2019), Diao Yinan
Below Freezing
We are at a party that doesn't love us. Finally the party lets the mask fall and shows what it is: a shunting station for freight cars. In the fog cold giants stand on their tracks. A scribble of chalk on the car doors.
One can't say it aloud, but there is a lot of repressed violence here. That is why the furnishings seem so heavy. And why it is so difficult to see the other thing present: a spot of sun that moves over the house walls and slips over the unaware forest of flickering faces, a biblical saying never set down: "Come unto me, for I am as full of contradictions as you."
I work the next morning in a different town. I drive there in a hum through the dawning hour that resembles a dark blue cylinder. Orion hangs over the frost. Children stand in a silent clump, waiting for the school bus, the children no one prays for. The light grows as gradually as our hair.
Tomas Transtömer, Translated by Robert Bly
At Funchal
On the beach there's a seafood place, simple, a shack thrown up by survivors of the shipwreck. Many turn back at the door, but not the sea winds. A shadow stands inside his smoky hut frying two fish according to an old recipe from Atlantis, tiny garlic explosions, oil running over sliced tomatoes, every morsel says that the ocean wishes us well, a humming from the deep places.
She and I look into each other. It's like climbing the wild-flowered mountain slopes without feeling the least bit tired. We've sided with the animals, they welcome us, we don't age. But we have experienced so much together over the years, including those times when we weren't so good (as when we stood in line to give blood to the healthy giant - he said he wanted a transfusion), incidents which we've totally forgotten - though they haven't forgotten us! They've turned to stones, dark and light, stones in a scattered mosaic. And now it happens: the pieces move towards each other, the mosaic appears and is whole. It waits for us. It glows down from the hotel-room wall, some figure violent and tender, perhaps a face, we can't take it all in as we pull off our clothes.
After dusk we go out. The dark powerful paw of the cape lies thrown out into the sea. We walk in swirls of human beings, we are cuffed around kindly, among soft tyrannies, everyone chatters excitedly in the foreign tongue. "No man is an island." We gain strength from them, but also from ourselves. From what is inside that the other person can't see. That which can only meet itself. The innermost paradox, the underground garage flowers, the vent towards the good dark. A drink that bubbles in empty glasses. An amplifier that magnifies silence. A path that grows over after every step. A book that can only be read in the dark.
Tomas Tranströmer, Translation by Robert Bly

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‘Sun.
I am Andúril who once was
Narsil, sword of Elendil.
The slaves of
Mordor shall flee from me.
Moon.’
Lord Of The Rings Anduril Sword with Runes Of King Elessar Aragorn
sword transcription
notes based on my half-assed googling and memories of the movie-vers of LOTR, which i've seen 3-4 times --
in a Catholic reading of LOTR, Aragon represents the King spirit of Christ
Anduril is a reforging (rebirth, resurrection) of Aragon's previous sword, Narsil, which was originally Elendil's sword, shattered during a battle against Sauron.
Elendil was the first king of both realms of Middle-Earth and died fighting Sauron (evil, a fallen angel) in round 1. In that battle, Elendil's son (Jesus being the son of God...) uses a shard of Narsil to cut off the ring from Sauron's hand, thereby defeating him the first time. The pieces are passed down to his 89th great-grandson Aragon, his inheritor, and is reforged into Anduril, which unites the good and evil that Narsil represents into one (humanity, mankind)
nice interplay with the sunset sky beyond Taemin-- symbolic of the end of an era, though it is triumphant in LOTR (the movies), which end with Aragon's coronation, his transfiguration (a metamorphosis, change in form), his transformation into a king (of the Reunited Kingdom)
so Taemin's taking up the mantle of Christ & king, reconciling the good & evil dichotomy he was confronting in NGDA?
(his rings evoke sauron's jagged metal armor, an industrial aesthetic + his seeing stone, the palantir / eye of sauron...i can imagine he was intrigued by the symbol of omnipotence, an inescapable gaze...)