develop intensely passionate feelings for anybody who’s decent to you

go back and forth between deeply loving and severely hating the very same person

get really ecstatic and positive at the thought of a small pleasure

get dangerously low and pessimistic at a minor set back

put yourself in compromising and potentially harmful situations as a way to, either consciously or subconsciously, further punish or traumatize yourself

get unmanageably angry when witnessing someone hurt your loved one

have obsessive and intrusive thoughts about violently getting revenge on any perpetrator who has wronged you or someone dear to you

disassociate in a number of ways, including feeling like you’re stuck in a simulation, a movie, or a dream. this also includes “zoning out” completely and not feeling or thinking anything, but obtaining more of a sleeping-while-awake state of being

have white rage episodes that result from external stimuli triggering your fight or flight mode. within these you can also exhibit sociopathic [sic] tendencies and symptoms akin to paranoid-schizophrenia

have any kind of hallucinations, be it auditory, visual, or sensory

are deathly afraid of abandonment and isolation

constantly worry that everyone hates you and your friends are faking affection, thus driving you to seek constant validation and reassurance

often go back and forth between beating yourself up for not being good enough for your friends/partner and demonizing your friends/partner for not being good enough for you

I’ve been having bad days and drawing this helped me remember things.