Oh god this was a mistake

Helen who can clearly remember and explain why she decided to leave, who can recall every single emotion she felt and every step of her thought process leading to her leaving.

Helen who looking back feels like she never should have felt attracted to Paris this strongly feels like she never felt anything this intense ever in her life except for her later hatred for him as well.

Helen who knows she was unhappy with her life, like it was lacking something crucial she was hoping to find with Paris.

Helen who knows how much she loves her husband and home and knows whatever else she felt should not have been stronger then this love.

Helen who really genuinely cannot understand if this decision was hers. Helen who after thinking about this for seventeen years takes the blame fully on herself nonetheless because she is sick of not having any agency and cannot bare the thought that the decision that doomed her life wasn't hers to make. Who takes the full responsibility of the war because that makes her feel like at least she was in control.

the concept of star-eating microbes causing a crisis and the solution being the introduction of space wolves to space yellowstone to control the space elk population. i love a good trophic cascade

dr ryland grace immediately pitching "turn the spaceship into a giant centrifuge to generate gravity" and then not balancing his actual centrifuge later on

the entire "life is reason" scene really

grace forgetting to open the mystery alien container in a fume hood AND immediately sticking his nose in it. if we did this in chemistry lab we were executed on the spot

academia drama being one of the cornerstones of grace's character

grace switching through every spectrum setting on the microscope to try to see into the astrophages and not being able to (relatable)

also: the astrophage dying and grace going "ohhh it died..." (very relatable)

grace having his not-scientist buddy Carl to give him frank solutions when he's overthinking. yes, often the solution is just to put the box in another box

copious duct tape usage

just sticking a filter into the path of the petrova line to collect astrophage goop

eva going "so it's alive" when grace tells them the astrophage are moving, and him being like "WELL ok that could be for a lot of reasons" in the tone of someone who doesn't even know where to start explaining why that's a hasty assumption

grace referring to the first new astrophage as his and carl's baby multiple times (HIGHLY relatable)