"Falling further, and further still."

by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore 

never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.

find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.

talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore

picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else

Like every time I trip and fall, instead of saying “l’m just a disaster human” I say “I’m the epitome of grace and beauty”

Or like, when I draw a picture I’m not 100% happy with, instead of saying “my art is trash” I say something like “you know I think it’s time we replaced the Mona Lisa”

When you do that you get to make a joke, but you’re ALSO getting practice building yourself up, y’know?

I replaced “I’m stupid” with “I’m a God damn genius.” “Move over newton” “another masterpiece”

I replaced “gross/ disgusting” with “sexy/attractive” “the hight of elegance”

I replaced “I suck/ that sucked/ this is bad” with “fantastic”, “a lovely time”, “ swell/jolly good”

Replace every negative with a positive. Say it so sarcastically. Make it complicated make it entertaining have fun with it.

like for example, tadc? they fucking tear those guys apart in the later episodes. you got all these cartoon characters who look so silly, like first ragatha gets stabbed but its played comedically and everything. then like, the immediate next episode kinger gets a shotgun and shoots it at a fucked up, unnervingly moist monster. a little while later they all get guns and kinger's the first have his whole head in a pile of splinters on the ground. it technically isnt explicit, there's no innards or organs whatsoever, not even a single drop of blood. but it feels so utterly jarring, and they give you just a little time to process the tonal shift before they all just start actually killing each other.

and then there's pacific rim, which i watched somewhat recently. and by god do they make the ripping and tearing of metal look visceral. in terms of human injuries, yeah we see a little bit of that. a little bit of blood here and there, but it's nothing crazy. the jaegers on the other hand? they do not get that kind of mercy. you see machines and are expecting "Ah! Metal! Strong, hard and rigid, right?" then you get to watch these colossal mechs designed to fistfight hurricanes getting crushed and torn to pieces as if they were but flesh and blood. the very first scene you watch a kaiju slowly ripping off chunks of thing and watch metal crumpling and wires snapping and it feels like gore. it's the same vibes as that one video of a crane(?) scrapping several cars, flipping them over and scraping out the car innards like a vulture plunging its beak into the belly of a carcass. no blood, but somehow it feels way more violent than basically every slasher horror where the Evil Guy cuts someone in half with a chainsaw.

He could get flashbanged and you would still not see his face

getting a book cislated: yup, still can't read it

cisition timeline: just a selfie

cisformation: make a bunch of super saiyan sounds and walk away

cisubstantiation: by the power of god this bread has remained bread