Missing Motivation

Yesterday was productive. Wasn't reflected so much in my time tracking but I actually did get a lot done.

Big plans for today. Already meditated so on to practice questions. I'm also thinking of going for a swim and going climbing today. But we'll see how I do on time.

So I'm back.

I'm studying for the USMLE Step 1 exam. I've already pushed it back once and I'm about to push it back another time. Basically to the latest possible date I have to take it by before I go back to school.

It's been a rollercoaster. I thought I was doing ok with getting the motivation to study but after a few weeks it fizzled out and I was doing the bare minimum. It seemed like not a big deal at the time - when the exam was still weeeeeks away.

Now that there's an actual deadline I'm starting to the feel the pressure. But I don't have a clear plan of attack for my studies. It essentially comes down to doing a lot of practice questions and hoping that I retain the information.

There is good news, however. I've been failing my official practice tests so far, but today I took one that I did fairly well on. This practice test is considered easier than the ones I've been taking and the actual exam is considered to be somewhere in between, difficulty wise. Having done well - I'm surprised I don't feel more relieved about my improvement. But, no time to dwell on that, gotta keep doing practice questions.

So, here, from now on, daily, I will be posting a recap of how many hours of studies I did and what I got done to get me closer to my goal. I'm using the apps ATracker, WaterDo, and Forest to help me.