Wayward Youth

after seeing your friends for a few hours sometimes u walk away and return home with a little ball of glowing golden light in your chest

You know it’s really fucking sad when people leave your life. That’s it, regardless of the situation, even if you come out a better person for it, it’s just really fucking sad. People who you had memories with, people who know things about you and taught you things, people who you at one point looked at like they were your whole world. No matter who’s choice it was to leave, it sucks. It’s hard and it sucks, and there’s no way around that. And it happens to all of us and we’re going to keep meeting people who might also one day leave us, but that’s life and we have no say in the matter so sometimes it’s okay to just think something sucks and hope it doesn’t completely destroy you.

cannot stand the fact that there are people out there who i love that i don’t even say happy birthday to anymore! there are people living and exsist in this world who i knew better than anyone...and i don’t know how their pets are, i don’t know if they still argue with their father anymore. there are people who i love and will continue to love who live on without me. and maybe i’m a passing thought in their mind but do they know that i love them? that i loved them? that i miss the smell of their house? that i forgot what color their bedroom walls were. that i miss the sound of their mother working in her home office...do they know that my loves spreads endlessly? do they know?!!!!!!!