BABY FLOWER BLEACH

karl marx: nice

my christmas story from a couple of years ago

positivity 

 a review of Girl Online by Zoe Sugg 

I started my blog up again, this blog post is a bit serious tho.. 

So much new stuff has happened to me over little time. Good things mostly! But still that one feeling I can't get ride of! I'm missing control! Control over something again! I had control over everything! Everything was in my power! But then he came around, made me overly happy but he took it! I feel so powerless! I have cravings! Cravings about it! The thing I think I can control the most, but in reality it's really it controlling me! I know that but still I can't help wanting it! Wanting control over just one thing in my life! My own little secret! No one really needs to know! I'm amazing at hiding it, or I used to be! He is the only one who'll ruin my plan! He'll notice, he'll see it! But there's always the other options! The one thing I wasn't strong enough to do last time! But somehow I kind of feel stronger now. Maybe it's my need for control? Maybe it's stronger this time? But I could really do this! No one would notice! No marks on my body! It's the perfect plan! And I would be able to control it! I really could! My life is better! But why do I get these fall backs?