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✨ A Little Commission PSA! ✨

Hey besties!! Just a few friendly notes for anyone planning to commission me!!! The previous pinned commission post will no longer be effective, starting today.

A./ For spicy / +18 art requests: please remember that I ONLY take those from people who are 18 or older. I won’t be making any exceptions, no matter how cool your idea is! Please be respectful about that, safety and boundaries first!

B./ If you need your piece done extra fast, please TELL ME beforehand! I’m a student with ADHD and a pretty full schedule, so I have to plan things carefully. Rush work is totally possible, I just need to know in advance so I can make it happen without burning out-

C./ References are your best friend. The more you can give me (especially if your character is from a fandom I don’t know), the easier it’ll be for me to capture them right! Moodboards, poses, outfit ideas, color palettes—everything helps!!

I promise to always communicate about timelines, progress, and any delays that might come up. Life happens, but I’ll always keep you in the loop!

And of course, thank you so much for your support and trust 🥹💛 commissions keep me going (and help me afford soup, coffee, and art supplies).

Let’s make cool things together!!!!

[EDIT: November 26th of 2025.]

🚫Quick Update on My Art Usage:🚫

(aka: I cannot believe I have to say this in the Year of Our Chaotic Lord 2025)

Tiny housekeeping moment 💖

Just a reminder that reposting my artworks (patreon's work included) anywhere—Discord, Pinterest, Tumblr, Instagram, your cousin’s paranormal cryptid forum etc—WITHOUT my permission is a big fat no. Nope. Non. Nein. Nuh-uh. Don’t do it.

Now, why am I writing this? Because apparently some people have the shameless confidence of a raccoon who broke into a bakery and are out here reposting works like it’s free samples at Costco (derogatory).

I don't care what's your bullshit excuse, it does not work on me.

Just because you can right-click something doesn’t mean you suddenly own it. This is not a medieval RPG where you loot everything not nailed down.

If you want to share my art: Ask. Literally just ask. I promise I don’t bite unless you repost without permission, then I absolutely will bite.

TW // body horror themes, skin conditions, scarring, skin picking mentions (censored because I don't want tumblr to boot me-)

For those who missed it or wondered where I disappeared to for a while, since January this year, I’ve been dealing with some really severe skin issues. What started as “weird irritation” turned into months of allergic reactions, inflammation, overactive histamine responses, pain, sleepless nights, impossibility of walking, swollen feet and hands, panic, dermatology appointments, and honestly… a very difficult relationship with my own reflection for a while.

Turns out my skin/system absolutely despises primrose oil. Also alcohol. And by “dislikes alcohol” I mean I cannot even let a drop touch my skin without my body trying to start a small war against itself apparently.

Add stress, studies, work, compulsive skin picking/overgrooming tendencies, and the cycle became brutal for a bit.

This piece started at the very beginning of all of it.

Back then, my skin felt foreign to me. Like it was splitting open into roots and nerves and rot and something overgrown. I felt trapped inside my own body in a way that’s very hard to explain unless you’ve experienced chronic skin issues yourself. Every flare-up felt monstrous. Every mirror became forensic analysis because I do still love anayzing body and I think I just dissociated from the fact said-body was in fact mine. Every texture, every spot, every mark suddenly became impossible not to see, I took pictures, made a timeline, compared each pic to see if some marks had changed, if the swelling had gone down... I thought, and I know this sounds so freaking dramatic, I was growing out stuff like in The Last Of Us, and I was becoming a sort of Clicker thingy. Not even exagerating, I was feeling like something was growing inside my skin and coming out of me through my pores.

So I poured it into art instead because I could not let this stay in my head. It needed to get out.

Weirdly enough… I finished this piece after my latest dermatologist appointment, at a point where things are finally calming down. Healing. The scars and marks are fading little by little. My skin still isn’t perfect, and maybe it never will be, but it no longer feels like I’m actively losing a battle against myself every day. (Shoutout to violet oil for genuinely carrying me through this entire ordeal like a holy relic.)

This isn’t the usual spooky memes, shitposts, fandom screaming, or creature content I normally post here. But this piece became very personal to me in a way I didn’t expect when I first sketched it months ago. It ended up documenting a period of exhaustion, shame, frustration, and recovery all at once.

I think sometimes the body becomes a haunted house for a while. And sometimes healing is just… learning how to live inside it again gently.

Hello my lovely people!!!🌿

If you’ve noticed I’ve been a little quieter lately, first of all thank you for still being here, and second of all: updates! Because a lot has been happening on my end!!!! GOOD STUFF!!!!

Hey everyone!!! Quick update so this can be put to rest properly on my end! (Sorry I just got out of my batcave, I had health issues flare-ups recently + exam week + we had electricity and internet issues cause of tempest Nils and also tempest Pedro in my region!!! A tree fell on a house and I had to go help clean up for a few days, spent more time than usual on the road cause the main ones were flooded as well so I was BUSY-)

I’ve been contacted by the client a bit ago and the payment for the portraits has been sent and settled. So from a practical standpoint: this situation is closed. The work was paid for, the files are being handled privately, and that’s that.

As I said before, I still won’t be sharing hate asks, callouts, usernames, or encouraging any kind of dogpiling toward the person involved. I meant that then and I still mean it now.

Please don’t send them hate on my behalf if you know who this is about or if you think you know who this is about.

I’ll be updating the original posts accordingly so people know it’s been resolved!

I do want to say thank you though! Thanks to everyone who boosted the posts, left kind words, checked in on me in DMs, or just… showed up with support: I saw you!!! It meant more than I can put into words, especially given the timing in my personal life right now! (aka big health issues and exams/homeworks kicking me in the teeth X'))))))

Some of you even (+10 peeps!!! WHICH IS CRAZY (in a wholesome sense)) offered to pay out of your own pocket to fix a situation that wasn’t yours to fix + proposing x3 times what was owed by them, which honestly had me staring at my screen like 🧍‍♀️???!!!!! in the most touched, emotional way possible. I didn’t accept (and couldn’t), but the gesture alone meant a lot to me!

To the person/people who stepped in behind the scenes to nudge things toward being resolved, thank you. You didn’t have to involve yourself/ves at all, and I want you to know I really mean it when I say it made a difference. I truly believe that without that push, this wouldn’t have been solved at all, or at the very least not anytime soon. So… yeah. I see you, I appreciate you, and I’m very grateful you chose to step in the way you did! Thank you again!🤍

Also I have to laugh a little because… the timing???? To the 40+ new peeps who followed me right in the middle of this mess: hi ???😭 I promise my blog is usually art, unhinged tags, and nonsense! Not commission saga episodes! You all really pulled up like it was Season Finale week LMAO- But jokes aside, welcome. I hope you stick around for better, calmer, more fun reasons!

If there’s any “lesson” to squeeze out of this whole thing, I guess it’s just: Be careful mixing friendship, community, 'tight-knit supportive groups' and commissions. Even when vibes feel safe. And especially then.

Protect your time, your work, and your boundaries early, because good intentions don’t always prevent messy outcomes. Consider this your friendly neighborhood cautionary tale… sponsored by emotional damage and BG3 watercolor portraits X'D

Anyway!!! Thank you again for the support, the kindness, and the patience while this got sorted! We can now return to our regularly scheduled programming: art, characters, chaos, and soup-level comfort posting!

So yeah hi hello, I kinda vanished for a bit those past days and I wanted to explain why instead of just reappearing like a cryptid in the fog (again).

TMI note: This post contains mentions of allergic reactions, skin conditions, medications, hormonal/PMS issues, and general health stuff — just a heads up for anyone sensitive to that!!!

TW: Exposure to enchanted Fey tittage. Nudity (tasteful, but she WILL bite you).

Hey!! I’m so so sorry I’m only answering now Anon!!! Thank you so much for being patient and for reading my fics, it genuinely means the world!!!!

It’s totally fine you forgot, I actually changed my account recently because I’m planning to publish properly in the next few weeks/months, like actual books! HELLO LIKE PROPER ONES I AM UNWELL- I also spent way too long struggling to pick pen names that felt “right,” so honestly I get it completely????

Right now, I’m juggling three big projects and they’re all very chaotic but I love them:

The cyber vamps: you’ve probably seen some snippets, it’s messy, glitchy, radioactive chaos, all the things I love.

The mortician guy and the sunshine baker: awkward, funny, painfully sweet. The mortician is socially awkward, a little dead-pan (pun very much intended, thank you-), the baker is pure sunshine, and somehow between baby showers, burials and wedding cakes, they just… fall for each other in the most ridiculous ways. Honestly, writing them makes me laugh and cry at the same time.

The taxidermy girlie and the farmer: she’s OBSESSED with critters (like dangerously obsessed), he has a 'pest' problem on his farm, and she just barges in like, “I CAN HELP DON’T KILL THEM!” It’s chaotic, adorable, and their slow little romance is everything I didn’t know I needed.

It’s all a little messy, a little weird, a little rotten BUT I love these stories so much and I’m really excited to share them with people who get it!!💀🥐🦝

Hey y’all!! Quick life update because I’ve been a bit of a cryptid lately and my inbox is staring at me like I owe it money 😭

I’m currently catching up on DMs, messages, tags, and everything in between, so if you’re waiting on me I promise I’m getting there!! I’m really sorry I’ve been so quiet / inactive — the new meds I got put on for my health absolutely knocked me OUT. Like… sleeping most of the day (which RARELY happens otherwise), forgetting to eat, wandering around like a sentient blanket ghost levels of out????🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️

I’m doing better now though!! Slowly re-entering the land of the living, drinking water, touching grass (begrudgingly), all that good stuff!

ALSO , Mother Nature decided to add a boss fight on top of that 💀 We’ve had a full-on tempest/storm situation in my region in France for the past few days. The winds have been going up to 160 km/h+ and my garden got absolutely BODIED by it!

House wifi went down in the chaos, so right now I’m running on my phone’s hotspot which is… let’s say temperamental, to stay polite????On top of that Tumblr's app just decided I don’t deserve notifications anymore for some reason??? Love that for me 😭

So if you need me / want a faster reply, feel free to poke me on Discord instead: the_wacky_soldier_

On the bright side, we still have electricity and heating, which I’m super grateful for, especially with this weather going feral outside and the fact the cities close to mine don't have electricity AT ALL and are flooded ;-;

[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]

Quick little PSA about the situation with the client because I’ve seen the asks, the DMs, the tags, the vibes™️and I FINALLY have some time in my schedule to answer DMs and all between exams!💚

First: I get the anger. I’m hurt, I’m disappointed, I’m frustrated, and yeah, I’m fricking angry too. This situation blindsided me, I thought this was a friend, and it sucks in a very specific “this didn’t have to happen” kind of way. So I understand why people are upset on my behalf, why it feels unfair, why it hits a nerve, especially in an art community where trust and mutual respect are supposed to matter.

That said, I won’t be sharing asks, anonymous or not, that literally insult, mock, or dogpile the person involved.

Not because I think people are wrong for feeling upset. Not because I’m trying to protect someone from consequences. And definitely not because I’m suddenly okay with what happened.

It’s because while I can’t speak for what’s going on in their head (obviously), I do know they see my posts. This person wasn’t a random stranger to me. They were someone I considered a friend. That’s part of why this hurts, and it’s also why I’m not interested in turning this into a public dogpile. I can be angry and disappointed and still care about someone’s wellbeing.

I don’t want to be the source of targeted distress, harassment, or vitriol for them, even when I’m hurt. I’m not interested in turning this into a spectacle or a public execution. That’s never been the point of me speaking up.

I spoke up for clarity. I spoke up because silence around unpaid work protects the wrong people and I spoke up because artists shouldn’t be quietly expected to eat the loss and move on. I’ve also seen people naming or speculating about usernames, groups, or “who’s involved.” Please stop. That’s not what this blog is for, and I won’t participate in that. There’s a line between accountability and cruelty, and I’m not crossing it.

So please, genuinely: Do not send hate. Do not harass. Do not go looking for someone to attack. Being angry on my behalf doesn’t require being an asshole to someone else.

You can support me without hurting someone. You can believe in supporting artists without dogpiling. You can be upset and still have basic decency.

I’m allowed to be upset. I’m allowed to set boundaries. I’m allowed to say “this wasn’t okay.” And I’m also allowed to decide how far this goes on my own blog.

I appreciate everyone who reached out with kindness, concern, support, or even just a “hey, I see you.” That means more than you probably realize. But please trust me when I say: I don’t want this to turn into a hate campaign. That’s not who I am, and it’s not what I want attached to my work or my space.

I also want to say this, because it genuinely made me tear up: the amount of support, kind words, and even people offering to cover the unpaid amount completely caught me off guard. I’ve never had that happen before, and it honestly meant more to me than I can put into words!! That said- as touched as I am, I can’t accept payment from anyone other than the original client. I know the intention is pure kindness, but I don’t want someone else to have to fix a mistake that isn’t theirs to fix. I don’t feel right letting my community carry the weight of someone else’s responsibility, no matter how generous or well-meaning the offer is. Please know that your support already helped more than you realize. The messages, the encouragement, the anger on my behalf, all that mattered. A lot. I didn’t expect it, and it genuinely carried me through a rough few days!!💚💚💚

that is not a 'whoopsie forgot' amount, that is a conscious choice to not pay an artist amount!! this is NOT normal behavior, this is NOT okay????

especially knowing who this is, someone who’s constantly loud about mental health, boundaries, 'credit artists', community care, all that good buzzword soup, and yet SOMEHOW had no issue fully fucking you over, in their own circle while you had MASSIVE stuff on the side and then choosing silence????? I’m sorry but I genuinely don’t give a shit about 'enough spoons' shit when we’re talking about taking money-free labor from artists!

being tired does not magically turn unpaid commissions into an oopsie! struggling does not mean you get to scam artists like that!

anyway, just wanted you to know you’re absolutely not crazy for being upset, and this is 100% on them! you deserved better, full stop and i hope karma gets to them for abusing your kindness, work and time like that.

[BG3 Unpaid Watercolor Commissions Part 3: Update!]

[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]

Ooookay first of all, I feel the protective rage and I appreciate it so much 😭💛! It means a lot to know people are seeing this clearly and going “no actually this isn’t okay”, so thanks Anon!!!

That said, small correction so the facts stay clean (because I’m trying very hard not to turn this into a telephone game): it would have been 60€ outside of a sale, but these were done during a promo where a portrait was 5€/portrait, instead of 20€/portrait.

So what’s owed is 15€, not 60€. For the three comms in total.

And like… yes, 15€ is “smaller,” but it’s still unpaid work. It’s still three watercolors. It’s still time, energy, materials, and trust. Unpaid doesn’t magically become fine because the number is lower...

I also want to be really clear about where I stand emotionally, because I don’t want my calm tone to be mistaken for indifference: I am hurt. I’m disappointed. It sucks, especially given the values they’re publicly loud about in their VP community/BG3 community. But I’m not wishing them harm, I’m not trying to sic anyone on them, and I’m not interested in a public stoning.

The door is genuinely still open. If they want to reach out and fix this, they can. This could still end in a normal, adult way. I’m choosing to believe (or maybe trying to believe) this wasn’t rooted in ill intentions, even if the ghosting and scamming hurt like hell. They are not blocked from my side and if they chose to reply, the door is open.

What I do hope, sincerely, is that they don’t treat other artists or people in their circle the way they treated me. If anything, I hope this is a moment they learn from and grow from, because that’s the only “karma” I’m interested in here, right now. Even if I do not end up being paid. As long as this type of behavior does not affect artists they reach out to in the future, I will be okay.

Just to be transparent: if there’s no reply or resolution, the Abdirak and He Who Was pieces (with some tweaks, don’t worry) will go up for sale on my websites.

The OC won’t, obviously. It’s theirs, and I’m not interested in profiting off someone’s character, even in a situation that hurt me. Boundaries still exist, even when I’m frustrated. I'm annoyed and hurt, not an asshole X')

Also I admire the grace you've shown in how you handled this. You gave the full context without ever dropping names or turning it into unnecessary drama, even though you would have been completely justified in doing so. Especially when it came to calling out people sharing Patreon work for free, which you were absolutely right about. I also really appreciated how clearly and repeatedly you asked people not to harass the client, even if they recognized them, and despite the hurt they did to you.

The way you chose clarity and honesty over spectacle says a lot about you, and I’m really sorry you were put in this position at all... I hope you'll find better moots in the future.<3

[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]

This honestly made me tear up a bit, not gonna lie 😭🫂 thank you so much for taking the time to write this Anon!!!!

I’ve been really overwhelmed (in a good way) by how kind people have been about this. So many of you reached out with support, reassurance, and even offers to cover the cost, which… I genuinely didn’t expect at all???? I can’t accept that kind of help, this is still work that was commissioned and the responsibility isn’t anyone else’s but the client's, but just knowing people cared enough to offer means the world to me!!!💛

I tried really hard to handle this in a way that didn’t turn into a dogpile or a spectacle, because that’s never been what I want. I don’t want harassment, I don’t want bullying, and I don’t want innocent people getting caught in the crossfire. I just wanted to be honest about my own work and my own boundaries, without throwing names around or making it uglier than it already is. So hearing that that came across… yeah. That matters a lot!!!

At this point, my message is out there. They know. The situation is clear. Their OC is up with the full context. If they want to reach out and resolve it, they absolutely can, the door isn’t locked, I haven’t blocked them, and I’ve never said I wasn’t open to a conversation. I’ve tried to leave space for communication, for explanations, for literally anything that isn’t silence.

I’ll be honest though… I’m not holding my breath anymore. I’ve kind of had to make my peace with that, even if it sucks and I did not get paid for work. I’m doing my best to believe this isn’t coming from malice or bad intent, because I don’t actually think it is. I don’t think they woke up one day and decided to hurt me on purpose. I think this is more about avoidance, discomfort, not knowing how to deal with the situation, and choosing silence because it feels easier than facing it.

But even when it’s not malicious, it still has an impact. Silence doesn’t make the problem go away, it just leaves it hanging, and that weight ends up falling on me. That part is out of my hands. I can’t force someone to communicate, and I can’t resolve something alone.

But messages like yours really remind me that this community isn’t just that!! There are good, supportive, thoughtful people here, and I’m really grateful for that!!!!🖤✨ Here’s hoping for better moots, better energy, and fewer unpaid watercolor horrors in my future 😭💀 The last and third unpaid artwork is He Who Was so I cannot wait to post him, despite the fact it is an unpaid watercolor comm... T-T

[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]

Sketch from a full watercolor portrait - this is the second piece in a set of three (all unpaid to this day, February 2nd of 2026.).

PSA: If you happen to recognize the character or know who they belong to, please don’t reach out to them or send any messages or hate. If they want to contact me, they know how to do so.

For the folks who asked about this, here’s the context down below (tw: kinda long????).

THEDAS CLEARANCE SALE OPEN!! DRAGON AGE THEMED COMMISSIONS WITH 20% OFF!!!

IT IS FEBRUARY 1ST!!!!!

The Chantry bells are ringing, Skyhold is understaffed, and I am officially opening the gates!

To celebrate my first (unhinged, emotional, life-altering) playthroughs of Dragon Age II and Dragon Age: Inquisition, I am running a 20% OFF Dragon Age commission event for the entire month of February!! Yes. The whole month. Feb 1st to Feb 28th. Both days included. No loopholes, no Fade trickery.

Your wallet may protest. Your conscience may whisper “is this wise?” But your favorite canon characters (and your OCs) are ready to live their best, messiest, most questionable lives in art form!

✨ What’s included in the sale:

Dragon Age Origins, DA2, DAI, and Veilguard

Canon characters, OCs, or canon/OC combinations

Soft, dramatic, silly, feral, emotional, or Iron Bull-level chaos

Sketches, lineart, flat color, full color—check the commission sheet here to see how the 20% applies!!

✨ Yes, +18 commissions are included. However (and this is me putting on my Seeker voice for five seconds):

You must actually be 18+

No, I will not explain to your parents why they’re paying for “nsfw artistic studies” (this has happened once. it was enough.)

If you are seeking:

Blorbos behaving badly (nsfw or not)

Canon characters in deeply questionable situations

OC hijinks in Skyhold, Kirkwall, or the actual mud of the Hinterlands

Dramatic poses, over-the-top expressions, yearning, sweat, regret, or chaos

…I am here. Stylus ready. Judgment minimal.

🗝 How it works:

DM me with your idea, characters, screenshots, and vibes (+18 verification required for nsfw!) You can also contact me on Discord: The_wacky_soldier_ (notifications behave better there)

I quote your commission with the 20% Dragon Age discount!

You pay half of it → I draw → chaos is safely contained within art

This is Day One of the event, besties. Take your time, browse the commission sheet, let the brainworms cook. Skyhold is open, Kirkwall is on fire (as usual), and I am the worst saleswoman Thedas has ever known but I will draw your blorbos with love!!

As an Abdirak mega fan myself, I would be happy to cover the cost of this commission to at least help you make up for some of the labour lost. If I understand your commission sheet right for a colour portrait, this would be in the range of €20? Please do send me a DM with details if you'd be okay with that. I hate seeing artists scammed, but scammed into drawing my favourite guy really grinds my goat.

[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]

I honestly didn’t expect this at all, so I’m a little emotional while typing this 🥹🫶💜💜💜

I’ve had a few people reach out the past few days after seeing the unpaid sketch post, some with really kind messages, some checking in, and even a couple offering to help cover the cost of the unpaid commission.

That genuinely caught me off guard. I’m just a random little ghoul on the internet making spooky art and terrible jokes half the time, so the fact that people cared enough to reach out like this… yeah, I’m a bit 🥲💔💖 about it????

I want to say thank you to you peeps, and to you @ankhegs-in-my-salad!! T-T🫶💜💜💜 The support, the empathy, the “hey this isn’t okay” energy, it all means more to me than I can properly explain right now. Seeing people value artists’ time and labor like this is incredibly comforting, especially on days where it feels… a bit rough.

That said, I don’t feel comfortable accepting payment from anyone who isn’t the original commissioner. As generous and kind as those offers are, it wouldn’t feel right to put that on people who weren’t involved. This isn’t something I want others to fix for me, even if the instinct comes from a really good place!🖤

Please know that the kindness itself already helps. A lot!!!! The messages, the concern, the solidarity, all of that counts more than you probably realize. You don’t need to do anything more than that.

You have every right to say who this. And the fact they're being like this while you're really sick, they deserve to be exposed. If they don't want you to say their name, they should act and pay you for the services you did for them. They're dishonest and I hope they get exposed for their bad behavior.

[EDIT: THE COMMS HAVE NOW BEEN PAID! Thanks to everyone who helped!]

Thank you for caring Anon🫂I really do appreciate the support and the anger on my behalf! it means a lot to know people see that this situation isn’t okay and aren’t brushing it off.

That said, I want to be clear: I don’t want anyone bullied, dogpiled, or harassed in my name. Even if what’s happening is dishonest and hurtful (because yes, it is), I don’t want the outcome to be people getting attacked or dragged publicly. Even though what they are doing to me is absolutely not okay.

I’m also going to close anon asks about this after this message, because some people have started sending names or guessing who they think the client is... and that’s exactly what I want to avoid. I don’t have the energy (or the health tbh) to manage that kind of fallout, and I really don’t want innocent people caught in the crossfire.

I shared this to be transparent and to set a boundary, not to start a callout campaign. Right now, the focus for me is protecting my work and my peace.

I reached out to the client recently to let them know I’ll be posting the rest of the artworks. I assured them I won’t tag or name them, but their OC is part of the set and is recognizable (especially in the bg3 fandom and its VP community, since it's an OC they post them often), which means people may make the connection regardless. I still want to post my work, because it is my work and I spent time on it. At this point, the client is aware of the situation and they have the opportunity to handle this privately, if they want to.