hi. beautiful stranger. before i start, i want to thank you for wasting your time reading my writings on this blog. if one of my writings made you smile or made you even sadder, i’m still glad that my pieces did their job which is to make all of you feel something. i will try my best to outgrow myself in writing and to be a better version of myself everyday.

speaking of writing, here’s the good news. i’m proud to announce that i’m currently writing a chapbook called “decathect”. it’s a collection of prose, poems, and melancholy. i will publish this one on wattpad. i am not a good nor a famous writer to be able to literally publish a real book. so don’t expect too much. if you’re looking for happy thoughts, this chapbook may not be for you. but you can still read it anyway. it will be my honor. the weird thing about it is that all of my written pieces in the past suddenly met at one point and still made sense. simply put, this chapbook will speak about everything that is hurting.

this journey is scary. it’s not easy to write a collection. this may take months or even a year or two to finish the whole thing. this will hurt me mentally, physically, and emotionally. i don’t even know if someone will read it. i am taking a risk here. that’s why i’m going to do it for myself. i hope you will still be here, reading my metaphors until i finish it. i will probably need your support. i am praying that i will be able to commit myself into this completely and also to write while being real to myself.

before i finish this note, it would be really helpful for me if you are going to spread or share this page especially my writings. thank you so much. sending love and light.

i think i’m in the phase of not having any purpose at all. it feels like i really don’t know where i’m going with this. why am i writing this? i’m lost and yet i don’t want to be found. but i thank those few people who asks about this book and telling me to publish the whole thing already. i appreciate y’all and your existence and appreciation.