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Really gross of me to desire attention, disgusting honestly.

bpd girls give the best head

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

feeling detached from everything in a way that scares me

when you’re laying in your bed crying and wondering when the pain and fear will stop and suddenly you’re 14 years old again and wondering why everyone you love hurts you and uses you and leaves you and why you aren’t good enough

sometimes i mourn the person i could've been if i hadnt gone through all this trauma and didnt end up with a personality disorder