Toxic Air Vent

I feel unlovable and it breaks my heart daily 

Or at least 13

why does everybody hate me [remembers my behaviour and personality] why dont they hate me more

I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle and it hurts but some pain is normal, right? Everyone says it's supposed to be hard. It is a marathon after all. I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle but honestly it could be worse, right? I heard someone once finished with a broken leg. The ankle is nothing compared to that. I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle but you can get used to pain, right? The body can endure almost anything. The problem is always the mind. I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle but I made it this far, that means I can keep going, right? Everyone says it's supposed to be hard. It is a marathon after all.

I'm a terrible friend. I deserve to hurt.

as my final act of love, I will swallow every "please stay" and turn it into silence so you don't feel trapped by my ache