Blame It On The Fool Moon

i need $700 overall (usd) to have all of that taken care of, but anything, even a little bit, helps and lets me eat and not be in a ton of pain all day and thus hopefully sort things out as best i can. i also really appreciate sharing.

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thank you and i'm sorry for taking your time with this. have a silly amity

*As of the moment you first read this poll. Unless you already have specific winning lottery numbers memorized you aren’t going back with that knowledge. You can remember the majority of the information from your prior life, but it won’t cause traumatic/PTSD effects - it’ll feel like you’re remembering someone else’s story in great detail. Unless you do something to change it specifically, all world events will remain the same including major economic events, wars/famine/pandemics, etc.

1. I started reading/speaking/walking fairly early (at 2) so I wouldn’t be forced to pretend about any of that.

2. My mom is decently conspiracy-prone (though also smart/logical enough I can usually talk her out of them early) so I’m pretty sure I could use information she’s told me about her life to convince her that I’m actually a time traveling adult stuck in the body of my kid self. I was a non-religious unschooled homeschooler so I already had a lot of freedom as I grew up. I even asked her what she might do lol.

So I think I’d try to pretend to the rest of the world I was just a very talented child while working together with my mom to do as much to my benefit with future knowledge as possible.

As for why I’d do it, personally? I don’t think I could fully save the world or anything with the things I know now alone, but I could dramatically change my life and that of a lot of people around me/I grew up with, *maybe* that of more.

1.

I wouldn’t be disabled except for my adhd anymore, and my adhd got significantly worse after my back injury (yes it’s linked, complicated) so even that would be less disabling. This would mean that not only would I be able to retrain my body as a dancer once more (for those who didn’t know, I used to be a professional dancer) but with significantly more dedication and enough knowledge to seem like a prodigy taking to it like a fish to water.

I’d also be able to start seeking apprenticeships outside of montana sooner and know how to go about it properly, so instead of just being professional inside of my home state, I might be able to become part of a larger dance company and make a better name for myself.

2.

I’d be able to avoid or combat so much of the racism and white supremacy I dealt with as a child but didn’t have the words or knowledge to fight yet. I could help protect the few other kids of color I knew growing up and just. Make a lot of shit better. I’d also be able to avoid a lot of people that hid their racism or abuse - I would never have been enslaved, I would have avoided so much community abuse, I wouldn’t have suffered if I knew who to keep at a distance and who to keep close.

3.

I could’ve transitioned younger and gotten access to meds earlier. This one is kinda obvious lol. My enslaver forcibly delayed my transition for three years but if I know from a young age I’d have so much more leeway. I’d also have avoided a three year stint doing youth group at a southern baptist church that fucked up my shit and I had to unpack until I was 18.

4.

Lotta my longest friends (like @skelejor) are just weird enough that if I came to them and told them the situation they’d likely just roll with it from the jump. I have minimal concern about re-finding the people I love or who serve a specific role in my life and reclaiming them.

5.

Set up a Google digest for a bunch of terms like Bitcoin to get in at the rock bottom of things I know will become successful the moment they get publicly mentioned. I could also stop a lot of shit that massively affected my life growing up, such as a company illegally draining the bank accounts of my entire family (including that of like 3 year old me who was trying to save up for my first computer :c ) that sent us from being middle class to “juggling what bills we can pay this month” poor. My mom was very good with money and was able to give the outward illusion things were still fine after that, but they weren’t lol

6.

Bc of the whole “unschooled homeschooled” and the “coming back with all my knowledge” thing I could use the “young brain plasticity” thing to actually learn languages, learn more complex topics young, etc. I had a voracious desire for knowledge when I was a kid but didn’t direct it well.

7.

I fully believe that I could get some 4ch chud or three to [REDACTED] people like M*sk and Mold Queen who actively funded and caused significant negative world shit if I made a persona “predicting” real life events consistently and used that to feed them conspiracy theories and future knowledge.