moon

going back and forth in my head picking connors brain ive realized he kind of only makes decisions for himself pre-deviating whenever hes given an excuse for said decision? unless theres something ive just completely forgotten, but like. shaolin, he doesnt have an out so he calls for hank because he Has To. he has an out when gavin and chris are scaring him (needs him alive), when kara jumps the fence (commanding officer tells him to stay back), when he lets rupert run off to save hank (maybe a stretch but prioritizing human life), when he spares echo and ripple (needs them alive, he even says this), and when he spares chloe (again commanding officer tells him not to, and he does admit he didnt WANT to shoot her when hank asks but it lines up with all the other previous decisions). he even has an excuse for some of the things he does in machine route, namely tearing ripples head off to trick her girlfriend (which was sadistic and entirely not needed, but he did have reasoning for it). he does not have an out during last chance connor, when hes under threat of death. although that entire chapter is kinda woah wtf because Why Is He Talking To Himself?

im not saying he was always deviant i am not a believer of "connor was made to be deviant" theory that pisses me off thrice a month on average but. it kind of feels like someone trying to express themself through chat options in a game? like animal jam or some shit. even the way he talks. i dont know if he does it intentionally, or if he actually cant do anything unless the path is opened for him. he is such a strange ass character.