maze

i really wanna come back with storytimes to share about things that happen in my dr omgosh 😣😣 i’ll update yall on every single detail

i want to give up on shifting, because i’ve been trying for so long and have made zero progress. i’m just so frustrated with waking up again and again in the same reality, but there is this tiny irritating voice in the back of my brain that tells me i’m gonna shift. it’s so tiny, yet its presence wont let me give up on shifting. i wish i could just rip it out of my skull because i’m so tired of believing in things that constantly let me down. everything i’ve ever believed in has disappointed me and i don’t know what to do at this point.

what do i have to dooo omfg its been 6 years im so fucking tired and im sick of trying and failing. i just need to know what to do to shift i give up

ooohhh mmmyyyy ggggoooossshhh 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 i really wish i could see my s/o like right now… 👀👀👀👀👀 if only there was SOME WAY i could just… wake up next to him… 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 i could totally go for a sign that he loves me if shifting isn’t on the table… 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 i wish i could ride the high of another mini-shift 👀👀👀👀👀 or even a lucid dream 👀👀👀👀👀 with my s/o 👀👀👀👀👀

i could just give up on shifting altogether and accept i’ll never get what i want but holy fuck i want it so bad i’ll die without even hope of getting it. swear to god, the idea i could possibly shift is the only thing keeping me alive right now and its really hard

my stomach hurtsss i really miss my baby so much