[Mayhap It Was Me]

Hi, I'm still alive...unfortunately... I'm sorry, I haven't posted in a long time, I've...well, things have just been not so great.

I'm actually kind of in a crappy place atm...Kind of had a break down just about an hour ago, that was fun!

Life kind of sucks, it really really does...The temptation to off myself constantly niggles me from the back of my mind, fret not, I have no plans of actually adhering to those voices. I have a nephew and niece who need me, and I don't want to make them super sad by removing myself from the realm of the living prematurely.

I kind of...idk, I felt like I wanted to post something, even if to kind of get stuff off my chest?..Sometimes people like feeling like they’re not alone in this darkness, not just me, I mean like...I know some people like hearing that there are people out there that know how shitty they feel sometimes, not because they like seeing other human beings in pain, but because they don’t want to be alone in feeling this way. That’s one of the reasons I don’t always put a cap on my rambling, I’ve been told it helps some people, so fuck it, I’mma ramble until the very end.

I don’t care if some people find it annoying, as long as there is even one person who finds comfort in my endless (and constantly pointless) rambling and ranting, then I think it’s absolutely worth putting up with the potential hate.

Square-Enix release a thing today!

Now, I'm actually pretty ill physically atm, and in no state to coherently poke around with the tool myself, but just at a glance and based on the provided text, this particular tool just helps with creating new(?) assets that work with the game- keep in mind that this doesn't include things like editing textures or models, that will need to be done in other programs, the point in this particular tool is just to make creating the base files much easier, it'll make much more sense if I give an example:

Let's say you wanted to do a simple recolour of Noctis' Prince Fatigues, with the provided tool you can pull all the relevant files from the game files and have them in a format you can readily edit in other programs (such as Photoshop, Paint.NET, GIMP, etc.) and then easily be able to put those edited files into the game to be tested/used to your leisure.

Now, keep in mind that I haven't actually tried the tool yet, and like I said I'm too ill for it atm (pain is distracting), so I could be wrong in how this tool works exactly, but I thought I'd just push out a bit of a shout out to anyone who was interested and/or were waiting on this tool's release.

Of course this is still not the proper full-on modding tool(s) that we were promised, but it looks like it's just a humble beginnings, my presumption at the moment is that there will be additional applications like this one that'll be coming out from Square-Enix over the course of the month (that's based on their planned release of the modding tools being either May or June, but delays are always possible), I'll keep an eye out and keep ya'll posted, but for now here's what's there!

Prompto Pictures Take 20 - We get into a few scrapes, we see chocobos, and Prompto goes to spaaaaaace!

DEFUQ, AN ACTUAL POST WITH ACTUAL CONTENT?! WHAT IS THIS MADNES?! I realized that I had some Ansel screenshots I hadn't uploaded yet of our favourite Chocoboi, so I thought I'd share them for your viewing pleasure. If I remember correctly, I was having some weird issues with Ansel where it would retain colours and filters from menus I'd opened, which is why the last picture looks a bit more "retro" or "aged" compared to others despite me not having applied a filter to it. I still liked the picture anyway, because it's of Prompto.

Prompto "going into space" there was just me trying to get a cool shot of him jumping over a fence, worked out quite nicely, actually. I was very saddened that I could not let Prom-Prom pet, hug, and feed the Chobabbies, HE WAS THE ONE WHO SUGGESTED WE GO SEE THEM, WHY CAN I NOT LET HIM INDULGE?! SQUENIX, Y U DENY ME DIS?! (Somebody make a mod to fix this heinously unimplemented interaction plz ♥)

Not sure when the next instalment of Prompto Pictures will be after this one, because I won't have any content left to share after these, unless I actually go take some more, but I haven't really been feeling up to it. I would still like to partake, just have no ETA on when I'll actually post any more after this, but just know that: I plan for it to happen...at some point, lol. I know a lot of you Prompto-thirsty fucks love these posts...I know I sure enjoy the amount of time I get to stare at Prom-Prom whilst getting these pics (when my brain isn't working against me), so like I said: Plans to continue are still there, just watch this spot!..maybe bring a chair...or like a bed, though, because you might be watching and waiting for awhile...maybe bring some snacks too.

I'm making a post about this for a few reasons:

1) To keep anyone who's waiting for content from me informed on my current status on providing said content. 2) To inform those who simply want to keep up with how I'm doing for whatever reason. 3) Because I feel the need to kind of ramble about it, and there isn't really any other better place for me to do so at the moment. 4) It makes me feel slightly better having put this shit out somewhere, even if nobody reads it (this is kind of just an elaboration on point 3, but eh)

So, I think I'm still ill, and I'm suspecting I haven't actually had a viral infection in this past month or so, I think it's something else. I'm experiencing some weird not-quite pain around my heart region, not quite at the heart exactly, but right next to it. At the very least I don't have that pain when breathing anymore and that much has not returned, but I'm definitely needing to head back to the doctor's and plan to ask him to refer me for some more intensive/specific health testing. This shit is getting expensive, but I know that if I leave it it could potentially become a much greater problem that could have been easily treated had I gottened checked earlier, and it'd be more paranoia off my mind if I could actually find out what's wrong with my body atm.

To elaborate on why I don't think it's been a viral infection this entire time- there hasn't been a single other person I've passed the infection onto, not my Mother, my Grandmother, or even my Niece and Nephew, and that's in the entire month+ that I was experiencing the lung pain. Mayhap it was just luck, but that just makes me incredibly suspicious. The second reason is that not a single anti-inflammatory seemed to fully alleviate the discomfort, even when something did work, the discomfort was never 100% gone. The third reason: The pain went away and came back multiple times now, the first was after the initial week when it then stayed for a whole month, but I've been having smaller bouts of the beginnings of that pain on and off since getting "better", I was suspecting that it was related to my lack of physical activity, so I started doing some more exercise, which initially seemed to actually make the pain go away entirely, but now, like everything else I've tried, has stopped working. (On a side note: I've still continued with the additional fitness anyway, because it's good to do so regardless)

My hope is that this isn't anything major, and that I can actually get a proper diagnosis on wtf is going on here. I'm trying to keep a positive onset, but overthinking makes that extremely difficult as well as anxiety. I'm just thankful that at this point I actually have the money to pay for all these appointments, because had this happened less than 6 months ago, I would not have, and while my family still would have had enough to pay for it, I would have been very bothered by how expensive my health issues were becoming. That being said, the money thing is still an issue regardless, but point is: It's better now than it could've been, and it's at least easily manageable with my current amount of income.

WTFeven?! - Prompto's Menagerie of Photo Ops Pt. I

Been sick for a whole fucking month on top of just the classic headbrain being broken as usual, haven't really touched FFXV because of it, but I've been lurking (mostly just stalking the PromptoxReader new post feed >.>) and really felt like I should post something since, despite my inactivity, people still be likin' my shit for some raisin(s) or another (or perhaps a sultana) and have decided to follow me...which probably means I should make use of the intent of the feature, mayhaps...

Anyway, for now- I'm going to be going through my collection of in-game photos (which I've been holding onto since) provided by our lovely Prom-Prom and showing off the ones I found the most interesting (reasons will vary from something as simple as "I thought it looked cool" to "bwahaha, defuq even?!" and everywhere inbetween and all around), some will be photos that you get in every playthrough (scripted photo ops), but I decided to share anyway because this is my gig, and I do whatever the fuck I want here! *takes piece of paper from desk and defiantly tosses it to the floor, but of course because it's a sheet of paper is kind of awkwardly floats down to the ground*

Heya, you thirsty fuckers. Apologies for the lack of posting in the last few months, my mental health hasn't been in the greatest place, and recently my physical health as decided that it's going to have a go at being shit too. I was wanting to get something together to post 2 about 3 weeks ago, but then I had a case of chest pains that the doctor says is from a viral infection (he didn't say of what sort, so that's bloody helpful, nothing like something as vague as "you have a viral infection" to reassure you!), which I then decided to wait out...it seemed to have gotten better last week, but inexplicably, it seemed to come back, and now I'm just in varying amounts of pain...

I'm going to see the dr. again sometime today, because I don't think A) A viral infection is meant to seemingly have gotten better only to come back a few days later, or B) a viral is meant to last 3+ weeks. Painkillers haven't been very effective, at the start they kind of dulled the pain, but then they just kind of stopped working entirely...They did nothing in the second bout of the infection, I've started taking aspirin over the weekend which seemed to work amazingly well, but it seems to be waning a bit with the efficacy...My body really doesn't seem to want painkillers to do their job, sigh...

These dr. visit and the medicine are getting bloody expensive...not American-healthcare (or lack-there-of) levels of expensive, but still pretty god damn expensive considering I'm currently unemployed and part of a low income household...I'll have enough money to pay for everything, but I'm just hoping I won't need to even more money into this, hopefully it's something typical and unconcerning and not something that may be life-threatening...

Regardless, I apologize for the lack of content from me as of late, I just thought I'd pop in to let some of you know what's up in my life atm. I'd like to get back to posting pics of our sunshine boi, but life has just not been in the right place for me to do that lately, but I'm still knockin' about, don't ya'll worry about that. Anyway, wish me luck with this stupid health thing, because holy hell am I don't being anxious about it...Also being in pain, I'm also sick of being in constant pain when I breath Dx

100 People Followers?!

Whut. How dis happun?! WHERE THE FUCK DID ALL OF YOU COME FROM?! Why are all you lovely people following someone who's basically been dead for like a month?! What even is numbzorz?! WHUTEVEN.

*runs around the room, arms flailing and making random noises*

*pauses* "Thanking you kindly" *bows politely before returning to the running, arm flailing, random noising activies*

Uh...hi...*awkwardly-nervous itty-bitty wave*.

Apologies for the sudden lack of activity, depression just kinda decided to jump at me out of nowhere again, so fun times, waaaaay *unenthusiastic and sarcastic jazzhands*

Thought I'd just make some kind of post to let ya'll know I'm still knockin' about...just haven't really had the motivation to get much done. But I'm okay...well, alright, I'm totally not, but I'm dealin' with that not-okayness and am not in need of any help right at this moment, just wanted to give ya'll a bit of a PSA/FYI/Update kinda thing, I just like keepin' people in the know about how my headbrain is doing sometimes...it helps in a really indescribable way.

In any case, I still totally want to do the things on that to-do list, but have no real ETA on when I'll actually next post some proper content...just whenever the ole headbrain decides it's gonna stop being a buttbrain, I guess. Pretty much: It'll happen when it happens...So that could be tomorrow, in a few days...few weeks...years...centuries...millennia...or maybe it's actually already happened and we all just don't know it yet!..It'll happen at some point within space and time, there we go.

Well, before I spiral out into some bizarre ramble about something completely unrelated and then spiral from their out to something even less related than that...and then repeat until I've somehow made it back around to the original topic...I'll leave this update here. I'm still kickin' about...well, actually more like flailin' I guess, since that's more of a thing I tend to do in any given situation. You'll see me when you see me, but for now I'll probably just initiate full lurker-mode...so I'll be here but you won't know I'm here (usually 'cause I'm standing behind something or someone taller than me, which is not difficult) until it's too late *cheeky grin*

Tundra Attire Detailed Reference Picture Sets

Prombow

Pastel Prombow

Dark Prombow

Find out whether I can individually colour sections of Prom's hair

Fun with Gradients?

If task #5 yields positive results, toy around with that more

Stare and sigh dreamily at pictures of Prompto for a few hours

Take a nap

Search for new Prompto smut and then be sad when there is none

Boot up FFXV to stare at Prompto for a few hours and then quit

Take a nap

More Prombow?

Stop getting distrac-

Some more things involving Prompto.

Take another nap since it's been awhile...

Some other things probably, and thensome

???

-ted