suicidal virgin

i need to imagine some scenarios

i think there is something fundamentally wrong with me but that's okay

I never got over anything. I miss everyone and everything. nostalgia and grief kill me every day. oh and I also love going on walks.

In another universe, I am lovable

i feel like a puppy no one wants

And I can’t stop biting the only people who are nice to me

let's be several years behind together

maybe if i keep ignoring this feeling of impending doom it'll go away

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything

my body is a machine that turns normal situations into psychological horror

locking in won't save you. self-discipline won't save you. you're trying to tidy up a house built on a fault line whose shifting is beyond your control. you know this already.

our fragile thread snapped I've cut it with my own hands now, only silence. restlessly, I spend my nights yet, in dreams, you still find me

in my overwhelmed era