sit stay beg

i dont tell anyone my wants and needs and then get sad when my wants and needs arent being met. but like they dont get met even when i repeatedly tell you what i want and need and beg you to try, at least this way i can avoid the disappointment. nevermind i’m still just as disappointed except now i have no one to blame but myself.

i dont go to the hospital or doctors or ask for help or take up any space unless i’m on the verge of dying and even then i probably wouldn’t i’d let it kill me i’m not allowed to be a person like everyone else i’m not allowed to need things i’m supposed to be invisible why would i take up peoples time attention space and resources when there’s people who are more deserving

you tortured me to insanity and then tortured me for being insane

i feel like a bird that flew into a glass window i never saw it coming

curling up in a little ball like a dog wake me up when it’s over

i feel like a pet fish being flushed down the toilet

neglecting my needs because that’s all anyone has ever showed me how to do

i’d die for you but it seems like you want me to

backing away from you like a wounded animal

i feel like roadkill

put me down like a dog

nothing destroys you more than having to bite your words so you’re not abused further. it’s a bubbling so strong it kills you inside

cant wait to be punished for acting like i slightly deserve to be treated okay

I don’t know how you can hate somebody so much but still love them and be unable to live without them

i wish i was loved unconditionally like a dog

this relationship has absolutely destroyed me and taken everything from me but i need him to survive