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“I amsick will not to choir because i have a heache. i Hope its very and i am so sorry

love,

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IT WAS ON THE DESKTOP. THIS IS WHAT I SENT.

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I deeply understand that most of you doesn’t know me personally, only a few. Before I begin I want to thank the people who extended their love, help and support. I might be tagging most of you again, please bear with me as I wish to update you of the progress and what is happening to me. Please reblog/repost/tag your friends. Thank you. I owe my life to you.🙇‍♀️❤️🙇‍♀️❤️ To my Sister from another Mother, a sister to another continent to you Mindy. I am thankful that I have met you. Eversince that wonderful fic that you have written that truly touched my heart, we’ve become inseparable. It’s been 4 years. And here we are. Thank you for always being there for me. Despite being miles apart.

To Cassy you are my angel and hero. 

To Nadine, you are beautiful inside and out.

To Rebecca(Margaret), thank you for making me smile.

To Charlotte, Julie, Michelle, Beth, Ash, Annalee, Darbi, Krystal, Athena, Nina, Penelope, Elime, Elke, Kennedy, Elis, Shirley, Ellen, Anna and Robyn. You are wonderful. I want to hug you guys so much.To the fandom, to the people who reblogged and liked my previous post, and to people who reached out to me. Everyone thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love you all. You are my life’s blessing. I know it is still a long way to go.

————————————————————– 5 years ago I was in an abusive relationship.

3 years ago I got a Tuberculosis due to secondhand smoking.

…….survived pneumonia.

…….survived Pulmonary Edema.

…….got stuck in the hospital for 3 weeks. Alone.

…….quarantined for another 2 weeks.

I am sorry for being a burden.

And I thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart.

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I was able to pay for my August 2020 rent balance, partially paid my Electricity and water Bill. And paid for my injured cat’s lodging to the vet.

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For everyone who is new to my post if you have time please read Reaching out to you….👩‍🦰👩‍🦰

Notice of Eviction

(Some information is blurred out for privacy, thank you for understanding).

(Php.125,000 plus Balance from Electricity and water approx = $3400+ depending on the currency exchange) 

It’s been more than a week since I made my post Reaching out to you…. It is very hard for me to tell everyone what I have been going through, as most of you who know me personally, are used to my cheerful attitude. Because despite the hardships in my life, I wanted to be a good person. I want to shower my love to others. From a human being to animals.

Sadly, yesterday I received a Notice of Eviction from my landlord. I deeply understand his sentiments, and I am already long-overdue.

I know how hard this Pandemic hits us, I got retrenched from my job. Which is very painful for me, because I love my job so much but I do understand that the company experienced a lot of losses. 

I still want to live in this apartment, because of the space for my cats and my dog. As on my previous post, only a few landlords/landladies allow pets to their property. I also have adopted stray cats outside. 

Some of you asked me if I don’t have any relatives in the city. I do have, I used to live with my Aunt’s and Uncles 3 years ago and my Grandpa who has dementia(I am the one taking care of him during the day), we live in the same compound - I live at the small house located at the back with a small garden where I can harvest vegies. But they kicked me out - they hate my pets and they hated me more after I discovered what they are doing to Grandpa - they are locking him up, alone like some kind of nuisance in the society. I tried to fight back, but I got threatened. And with a heavy heart, I left and looked for an apartment. 

Fast forward I was able to find a home suitable for me and my furry family. Where they can still play, and do a little bit of planting. The landlord and his family are very warm to animals. And I am deeply grateful for it.

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Rescuing my Sister-in-Law & my nieces

My larger family is living in the province. Mostly consists of farmers and fishermen. I do have communication with them, but I already accepted the fact that they always dismiss me when we talk about my condition, as in my previous blog-post they take anxiety & depression as a form of a normal disappointment “No one is crazy in our family” they quote,  without understanding the deeper meaning of it. At the end of the day I end up listening to them and being a good sister & daughter. I have nothing against them, it’s just making me sad. 

Last February 3 - I got a phone call from my Sister-in-law, asking for my help. She wants to leave my Brother, after 15 years of marriage. She’s been mentally & physically abused, and the most painful part of all is that my Brother hurts my 2 Nieces everytime they argue(living traumas to both children who are still minors). It is not healthy anymore. And even threatened her that he has a gun, and might shoot her and their kids. Thankfully a concern neighbors stopped my Brother, and sadly he is currently in jail for abuse against women and children. I do not know yet where this case will go.

I sent help for them. And they are staying somewhere, and did a Swab Test, and they are waiting for their permit to travel to where I am currently staying, they will be traveling by plane. But after that she will bring her children to her birthplace with her family. I think it is better and safe. I want to make sure that they are going to be okay.

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How am I holding on?

I wanted to be honest, I still have a hard time with everything especially being isolated and alone. Overly stressed with everything especially with the situation with my Apartment and with what had happened to my Brother’s family - I hate seeing a broken family. I have lapses, and most of the time Anxiety hits me. My mind sometimes overloads, which results in sleepless nights. I’ve been suffering with Chronic Back Pain for how many days now.

I am also applying for a new job, but still no feedback. I hope there will be soon.

It is very hard to be the breadwinner of the family. I am the only child who was able to go to college. And until now I am still also paying to my Mother’s hospital bill from her major accident a year ago, it almost killed her(15 bags of blood + 3 major surgeries).

As for my counseling and therapy, I will be starting this tuesday. I am hoping everything is going to be alright.

I am sorry everyone. I am really sorry for asking too much. I can’t afford to lose our home.

Thank you for your love and understanding.

There is still light at the end of the Tunnel. I am not losing hope.

Have courage and be kind.

I am holding on. Let’s hold hands.

I will try my best to give you updates.

Sending my love to everyone.

Love, Rhyz, my Dog and Cats 👩‍🦰🐶🐱 Please stay and bear with me.

I currently fixed the minimum donation amount to $10 but if you wish to donate on a higher or lower amount please don’t hesitate to message me either here on tumblr or Twitter. I will deeply understand.

I used Ko-Fi as the page for my fundraising as they don’t charge, unlike other fundraising sites. Donations are in the form of a cup of Coffee(can buy multiple coffees). Leaving messages is also highly appreciated.

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.

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I deeply ask of you for your patience, understanding and please help me by boosting or donating. I thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart.

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I deeply ask of you for your patience, understanding and please help me by boosting or donating. I thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart. God Bless you all.  For the people who will message me, I might respond late because of the time difference.