Journal of Writing

It's al about attention.

This is not my diary, I have one at home. I wish to publish it when I'm gone. And this journal on tumbler is more to look in my daily thoughts. I wonder if someone is doing the same on tumblr. Or I just can't find those tumblrs... Stupid...

But when you tell your boyfriend about that his guy friend is maybe in love with you, it is because his guy friend ''is just very social while drinking''...

I'm tired, and it took me hours to came out of bed. En then I was too tired to start the day, so I turned around. It is okay.

I will never understand what love is. Trauma's created by men who did not care, and women with no respect for themselves. And here I am, learning to trust again at the age of 23.

I just changed my stories on Instagram. I just wanted to, but my brain kept saying. Is this normal? Why? And I could not give the answer neither to both questions. I just did it.

I just don't know..

I don't find it difficult, but sometimes I just don't know how to start. I just want to start the storyline good.

- act dishonestly or unfairly in order to gain an advantage.

I don’t know where to start, but every time I think of what happend it hurts. The problem is that it doesn’t matter which month or day it specifically was that hurt me. It was the whole story, the whole adventure that killed me.