Doesn’t matter how long it’s been
It still hurts after 7 months
I couldn’t be the friend you deserved
So you severed ties
You wanted to protect your peace
Cannot blame you
Seven months later
I still grieve the friend I thought you were
I failed to be the friend I was supposed to be
But your screaming and half truths still shatter my heart
I know I fucked up
But so did you
We used to laugh with each other
Until your laughter felt like pain
You used to be the reason behind my smiles
Now you’re the reason behind my sorrows
Your compassion was performative
So was my masking
You called me childish
But then you followed up by shouting at me
You said I played the victim
But you did too
I never raised my voice at you once
Yet you raised yours at me
Your two faced nature
Your biggest downfall
Your jealousy is cancerous
It is malignant
You couldn’t handle a dude giving someone else attention
So you lashed out on me
I tried to be your friend
Until my masking began to crumble
In another lifetime, we could be friends
In this lifetime, we became enemies
You maybe six years older than me
But I was more mature
Despite our falling out
Peace and healing is possible
You went from being sweet
To incredibly sour
Like your poisonous ego
It brings pains
Until you can own up to your fuck ups
Don’t expect me to speak highly of you
Tell half truths about me?
I’ll tell full truths about you
Like your heart
They are ugly
