Beautifully Shattered

“The tragedies of life, I often find, lead to the most beautiful displays of humanity.”

He answered his phone; even though he was sleeping when I called… What beautiful feeling it brings me to know that he would allow me to disturb something as precious as his resting time.

“There is no such thing as “deep talks” after 3am. Only silence and darkness that chokes your broken heart and screams through your shattered bones.”

“I am nothing more than a distraction. How foolish of me to believe I would ever be anything otherwise. The futures with him I saw were nothing more than cruel mirages in the massive deserts of my heart. I deeply long to find the oasis in this vast sea of nothingness, however, on the rare occasion I find perfect place for me, it ends being nothing more than the wistfulness of my mind playing tricks with my spirit. I can’t help but wonder, perhaps true love is a thing I am underserving of.”

“One of the deepest of my desires is to curl my meek self into a corner

“I fall under the illusion that there’s something special about me, something that will draw the perfect person to me who will love and cherish me and treat me like the most precious jewel in all the universe -SNAP- back to reality where I feel the collective cry of thousands of women just like me; waiting—begging for that perfect prince in shining armor who is destined never to arrive…”

“My heart is aching for I do not know where we stand. I try my best but I’m well aware I am a burden on every man. Every man that I love, every man that I hate, every man I like and every man I date. I know I’m not perfect, and I don’t cross every “t”, but I do my best, you can guess the rest, I’m just trying to be me.”

“I am among the nightmares, the shadow of myself is barely there, resting where visions begin and reality tears. Holes in the bathtub from which black water flows, the memories haunt me, lost with no compass rose. This dreadful merry go round just goes and goes, and where it stops? Not a soul knows.”

“I was gonna jump off the roof today but for the world to mourn me when the weather is stormy seemed just too cliché. So I’ll burry my sorrow and maybe try tomorrow cause lord knows the heart doesn’t fix in a day.”

“You say I mean so much to you but right after that message sends, you turn off your phone, get into bed and hold her all night long.”

“I don’t want to be somebody’s fun once in a while. I want to be somebody’s everything all at once. Somebody’s sun and moon, someone’s everyday.”

“You say I’m the one that got away but I’m not the one who left.”

“By now you’re half a world away, yet the pain still feels like you were here just yesterday.”

“Dance with me where the road meets the stars. Where dreams are made and sadness fades. Where the world dissapears and you become my only reality.”

“O sweet child, let the apparations of your past haunt you no more. Rest your eyes and fall quietly and peacefully into your eternal slumber.”

“I lay awake at night and cry into the endless silence of oblivion. I suffer alone in the darkness that slowly consumes me. I take pill after pill in attempt to keep it at bay. Then I wait, for the sweet realease as the drugs take over my body until I feel nothing.”

“I haven’t eaten in three days, my stomach hurts but anxiety keeps me locked inside my own head. And honestly, I’m drowning.”