Malice Looming

Mt Crawford Forest.

Adelaide, Australia.

📷 Amber's Photography

**yes I am a bigger woman, I am aware and I don't care. I was also carrying an 8 pound gorgeous little girl**

But some days are so hard. I find myself not having time to be me. I used to be so selfish, everything I did was for me; now everything I do is for you and I wouldn't have it any other way because I love you. But sometimes it gets exhausting.

I am having a VERY hard week. I have been crying almost daily. My chronic pain is agonising. But I put on a smile for you because I don't want you to see mum in pain or upset. We knew that having a child was going to be hard, especially on my me with my health problems.. and it is.

I feel like a bad wife because I'm falling behind on everything. He doesn't expect anything of me and tells me he would rather me be okay than have a clean house but I feel this immense obligation to do it. Like I feel guilty he works and I'm home all day. Which is my own feelings, he is a great father and a great husband. I guess growing up in a society that says stay at home mums need to clean, cook and do everything has made me feel this way. Some days I just want to sit and watch Netflix when I can!

TLDR; there are good days and bad days. And it seems I am having a cluster of bad days right now. But you smile at me and bring me back to earth.

My happy little Mia.

I love you.