Captive in my Maladaptive

I wish depression were an emergency. I wish someone could take one look at how sick I am and go “oh my god, we need to get you to a hospital!” and then when we get there I get rushed into surgery and the surgeons say “it’s a good thing you brought her here when you did, this is a seriously advanced case” and then they put me under and spend the next ten hours pulling metres of long, sticky black strands of gunk out of my body, throwing it immediately into an incinerator so that it can’t infect anyone else. And then they could stitch me back up and I could rest a few days, and when I leave the hospital everyone can see how much better I am and they congratulate me saying “well done, you’ve been so brave, I’m so glad you’re ok. I love you.”

Heavy on the vitamin thing! I don't know how many vitamins I've placeboed into making me feel awesome then a week later I feel exactly the same and I realize I actually just wasted money.

Crying because of a story I made up and only exists in my head

This was literally me 2 nights ago reading fanfic and then changing the scenes I didn't like to be more emotional.

Please keep interacting with this post because when I come to tumblr to procrastinate, this shows up again in my notifications and guilts me into writing again

I’m not Christian, I don’t go to church anymore, and my pastor died, but when he was alive I’d sometimes go to his sermons and I remember one time he said “it feels good to hate, but we know that it isn’t allowed, so when we’re told that we’re allowed to hate someone we get so excited that we forget we’re supposed to love”, and if my humble atheist ass might borrow some church talk I’d like to perhaps submit that

Anyhow sometimes on the day to day I feel disgust or revulsion and I have to ask myself “is this a danger to anyone at all or am I just looking for something I’m allowed to hate” and a solid 98/100 times it’s the latter so once again thank you pastor D

i like the phrases "it's not for me," "it's not my thing," and "i'm not the target audience" because they're the most concise way to express "this thing that you enjoy has merits but idgaf about it" without being aggressive

I use this phrase with my nephew a lot but I like adding encouragements for him when I want him to talk more about it. As kids grow and they hear these phrases, it teaches them that others may not like it and that’s okay, vs saying something like “why would you like that? It’s so boring” or whatever it is kids are saying these days.

It’s always funny to me when people think they should take your actions personally when most aren’t meant in that way 🙄