Starving For Perfection

self sabotage is weird because what do you mean i make myself miserable and i'm aware of it but don't know how to stop.

when someone asks me what's wrong but i'd rather sit on my bathroom floor gasping for air than explain to them what's wrong

The fear of abandonment isn’t just about people leaving, it’s the gut-wrenching belief that you aren’t worth staying for.

I wonder how much more I have to stay alive until I'm finally free

I’m so tired of not being enough.

I can always kill myself. That's the only comforting thought I have.

Do you ever like physically feel yourself pass your mental breaking point and then all you can think is “oh these next few days are going to be interesting”

Like you’re just sitting there silently and on the outside you seem fine and gathered but in your head you’re like “oh this is gonna hit me like a train any second”

Glad to see all 19k of us are clearly fine and okay

*one very very minor inconvenience occurs* oh, that sucks. i should probably go kill myself now

rejection sensitivity is so fucking lame. like boo hoo look at me i felt mildly ignored for 30 seconds and already started planning my own funeral liKE BITCH CHILL it was never that serious

No sanity or stability here, just a delusional emotionally unstable person who feels too human or not human at all.

One of the worst realizations that I have ever made is realizing that all I ever wanted was to be loved by my parents. I never would've turned out like this if they just loved me unconditionally.

I feel, once again, called out

therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults