Enby Things

So, after having top surgery, I realized I could feel women’s breasts when I hugged them.

Me in middle school: I’m not like other girls.

I went to the closest mall today (an hour drive) and at the last store I went to, I gave them my phone number for the rewards. The interaction that occurred was not what I was expecting:

The worst thing about top surgery recovery for me wasn’t anything to do with recovering from the surgery. The worst part came a week after my surgery. I went back to my apartment after staying with my dad and stepmom for a week.

I take online surveys to make some extra money, and let me tell you, being non binary is a pain when it comes to surveys. One asked me to describe who live in my household and gave me 2 sets of 8 different age ranges, one for male and one for female. As someone who is the only person living in their household and isn’t male or female, I did the only thing that made sense to me while not losing points from not completing the survey:

Is it weird that I miss being in the first day of recovery? Maybe it’s because I was too tired to be bored, maybe because the drains weren’t so irritating, maybe because I’m starting to miss work, I really don’t know. Right now everything is just so ugh.

I think I just felt my first phantom sensation???

If 20 year old me could see me now, they’d probably hug me crying, because they never would have thought we’d actually be able to transition and get top surgery and have actual friends.

I mainly work in the kitchen at work, but when I’m back I’ll be on register for a few weeks. (No lifting fryer baskets with 15lbs of chicken for a while 😞)