Lyra Maris

"Women shouldn’t be valued because we are strong, or kick-ass, but because we are people.  So don’t focus on writing characters who are strong.  Write characters who are people.”

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 Last night, I was watching Silver Linings Playbook with my mother. Somewhere at the end, I had a seizure. I don’t remember it actually happening, just how confused I was when there were 3 men in my room asking me how many fingers they were holding up and my sobbing mother.

 Went to the hospital, no tumors, nothing wrong. They concluded it was a side effect of one of the antidepressants I’ve been taking. Got to go home around 12/1. 

  The only scary part was riding in the ambulance, knowing my mother was in the front, bawling her eyes out because she had no way to help me. I just sat up in the gurney and repeated a hundred times in my head, “you are not allowed to die, you cannot die, you can’t die, you aren’t allowed, you’re going to be fine”

  Idk if seizures can kill, but the headache I had in the ambulance had me pretty convinced I was in danger of just passing out and never waking up again.