obsessed with city lights

the concept of watching Pretty Woman (1990) thinking of CasDean and WangXian as Vivian and Edward

Evelyn seeing Sung Hyeonje being dragged around like a loyal dog by Han Yoojin is like Mingyu watching his boss, Lee Sayoung, getting dragged around by Cha EuiJae lol

just got my psychiatric meds restocked and while they don't magically solved all my problems, I guess some people who have no faith in religion ought to have faith in something else in this world to at least holding out a little bit of sanity

wish people would explore Dean's anger issues more in fanfics. I think it's interesting when Dean is showed to be selfless, protective of his family, helping everyone around him whenever he could. But when he's in trouble and someone tried to offer him a hand he'd just.. get mad. swat away the hand, getting all suspicious, not trusting that anyone would help him without wanting something in return. Or how he felt like he should be able to fix everything by himself or he'd fail as a person or something. Someone helping him would feel patronizing. He got angry as a defense mechanism, or simply because he finally had an output to lash out on someone who tried to get him out of the self hatred cycle. I want to see an Angry Dean.

losing the plot as I continue to rot at home.