Belphegor closed his eyes ready to drift into a peaceful slumber.
His dreams lately hadn't been as happy as he would've liked but it wasn't anything big nor anything he couldn't handle.
He awoken suddenly when he heard someone say his name, he opened his eyes fully to reveal lillith standing Infront of him, arms crossed like she was disappointed in him, what had he done to make her look so disappointed.
"Belphie, I can't belive you went down to the human world!" She exclaimed at the ex-angel, "you know Micheal forbid us!"
"I know, I'm sorry...I was just curious what their like" as soon as those words left his mouth it felt as if the room had shifted, lillith now behind him a more angry expression on her face
"Your curiosity killed me, belphie...made our brothers fall and you dare act like everything normal around them?" She said appearing next to him, putting a hand on his shoulder, "How could you not apologise to a person you almost killed?!"
"Stop it!!, Just stop!!" Belphie grabbed her hand and pulled it off of his shoulder, "I know I should've apologized! I know I shouldn't have tried to do what I did, but I'm trying to get better, I'm trying to do better!!"
All of a sudden the room went dark and he started to fall.
He woke up with tears streaming down his face, he couldn't belive what dream he had. He tried to close his eyes but the thought of that dream coming back made him force his eyes open again. He didnt want to feel the anguish felt again.
How could lillith say that to him...he knew it was a dream but that made it hurt worse, what would she think of his actions...maybe beelzebub should've saved her instead of him.
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After 4 days of not sleeping Belphie felt the need to seek help for his dilemma. Whenever he closed his eyes to sleep he saw an angry lillith in front of him, arms crossed and a sour expression planted in her face.
He had asked every one of his brothers for help except to one...lucifer
He hadnt been on good terms with his eldest brother for a long time, but if anyone knew how to help it was him...
Belphie knocked on Lucifer's office door and had a thought for a moment to leave, to ask beel for help again but lucifer opened the door before belphie could run
"Yes, Belphegor?" Lucifers said as he looked at the shorter demon with a curious look in his eyes
"...hey Lucifer I could really use your help for a moment. If your busy I could ways come back later" belphie stammered as anxiety creeped into his heart.
Why was he so nervous...he had talked about it with the other brothers so why was lucifer the hardest to talk to?
"No need to leave, I was just finishing the last paper, now...what's bothering you?" Lucifer said moving out of the way so belphie could walk in
"...It's about lillith" belphie muttered feeling like an idiot being upset over a stupid dream.
"lillith? What about her?" Lucifer questioned as belphie walked into the room, sitting on the couch
"Well...you see, I had a nightmare about lillith about four days ago and I haven't slept a blink since...I'm extremely tired but I don't want to see lillith mad at me" belphie stated as he hugged himself
"May I ask what your nightmare was about?" Lucifer asked.
Belphie explained his nightamre and how lillith had blamed him for her and the brothers demise. That he should feel ashamed for trying to kill the mc.
"Listen, it wasn't your fault lillith tried to save that human she fell in love with, it wasn't your fault that she fell in love...she tried to play god and if she blamed it on you than shes digusted with herself and trying to point the blame" lucifer started, "if beelzebub saved her, she would be upset that you died because of her. Lilliths actions are not yours to carry belphie. You made a mistake, yes but at least your taking accountability for your actions and attempting to fix it"
Belphie was speechless, "I...but how will I know how to move on and stop having bad dreams..."
"You won't, Belphegor. You have trauma from watching her die...it will always be apart if you but if you talk about it it'll make it a bit easier to deal with...the bad dreams remind us to savor the good dreams"
Lucifer pulled his younger brother into a hug
"Im sorry you were struggling through this, if you need to talk I'm always here for you"