Itβs been a whole week since my family went on vacation to Vegas, and honestlyβ¦ itβs been kind of nice, just being with my own feelings. Iβve been giving myself space to sit in them, to figure out whatβs really going on inside me. Iβve noticed Iβve been eating a lot of my comfort foods, whichβ¦ makes me feel better. A lot better, actually.
Iβve also given myself permission to mope, to do nothing, and then sometimes to do a little cleaning. Not a lot, just enough to make my space feel moreβ¦ in order. And somewhere in between all of that, Iβve been thinking about lifeβabout how I want to be, what I value in a career, where I stand in terms of my self-confidence. Iβm learning to take my time with that, to be patient with myself, to be kinder and more friendly toward me. Because when Iβm too harsh, I fall hard. I need to learn to be mindful, gentle with myself, to honor my own pace.
I love helping people. I love giving them the experience they deserve. Like customers, for exampleβI donβt think anyone should be rushed just because theyβre in service. But at the same time, I know people have places to be, and they shouldnβt have to wait either. I wish I could find a place, a company, that really accommodates that balance. It doesnβt have to be the food industry. Maybe an office job. Maybe somewhere I can still look professional, even get my nails done. Maybe a hybrid job I can do from home.
Funny enough, part of me would love to just⦠not work. Just stay at home and cook or bake, experiment with flavors, create without restrictions. Though, maybe part of the fun is figuring out how to make things taste amazing within limitations, right?
Iβm also remembering that my intuition is still there. Itβs been dormant for so long, mostly because Iβve been scared to really speak up about it. Lately, Iβve been trying to open my voice again through storytelling, through narration. I only did the voice acting thing once, but I loved it. I need to stay consistent, because I want to keep growing into someone whoβs proactive, expressive, vocal.












