am i going mad?

The eldest daughter urge to "move away from home and cut off her family"

toxic parents will traumatize you and act surprised when you act like you've been traumatized

if you raised a child who is afraid of you and afraid of your reactions to things they do or mistakes they make you fucked up and were a horrible parent

Becoming less reactive is a big part of growth & decreasing stress. Sometimes this type of avoidance can be looked at as lack of interest or uncaring, but it isn’t. If you let everything get you worked up, you’re damaging your mind, body & soul

I’m not saying that my parents are bad at parenting. I’m only saying that they shouldn’t be the reason why their kid wants to kill herself. That’s all.

They say, how can you hate your mother? I answer, how can you love your abuser?