Figuring this out as I go

I went back to look through my archive to see how bad it might get if someone reblogged the first thing I ever drew, and man... I was looking through my tumblr over the years, and it's just really obvious how much happier I became getting into the Kaito fandom.

I don't think it's *because* that happened, I can't give it that much credit. But the tumblr posts I had before that were a bit sad and a bit lonely for a few years after my previous hyperfixation (a lot longer space of time than I had realized till just now) and my previous hyperfixation, Undertale, was a lot shorter period of time than I remember it being?

And while I have a lot of good memories and great moments from those undertale years, I'll be honest, those were also probably some of the darkest years of my life. And it feels like my undertale posts really reflect how chaotic and difficult and depressive a lot of what was going on in those days was. Like I just glance at them and can remember how... not good. Things were.

Not everything. Some things were good. But... yeah. Tougher times.

But this is a sentimental post in the sense of it's just nice to see in a casual scroll my posts and the things I reblog just notably getting happier and more lighthearted once I hit 2022. Not everything has been easy, but man, my thirties have been a good time, and I think it shows even just in the way I engage with fandom now.