Lovely Sana

Matty Healy

cards pulled: tarot - the tower, the chariot rx. media - chris brown, training day. archetypes - midas/miser, poet, martyr (shadow), hedonist (shadow)

Taylor sees Matty as exciting but ultimately destabilizing. In her head he’s the one who blew things up, brought chaos, or made her feel like she couldn’t fully relax because something was always about to go left. She remembers him as talented or charming in a way that pulled her in, but also reckless, ego driven, & hard to steer. She also sees him as someone who cared a lot about status, money, or “winning,” more than he lets on & she thinks he could be selfish when it mattered. She thinks he didn’t actually have control of himself, like he acted confident but made dumb choices or couldn’t steer his own life cleanly. She sees him as a disaster she tried to manage & could not. She likely feels like he derailed her peace, embarrassed her, ruined her image or forced a hard reset in her life. She also thinks he made everything about his cravings & moods, then played victim when consequences hit. She can still be weirdly drawn to his intensity though, but she does not trust him & she sees him as unsafe long term. Overall she remembers the adrenaline he made her feel, the attraction, the drama, & the crash.

Joe Alwyn

cards pulled: tarot - five of wands rx, king of cups. media: rihanna. archetype: angel, fool, knight, mentor, addict (shadow)

She thinks Joe was the “good” one on paper: calmer, kinder, emotionally supportive, maybe protective. She thinks he was emotionally warmer than most of the others & that he genuinely tried to keep things calm. She who could hold steady and not blow up every problem. “He wanted to be good to me.” vibes. He avoided chaos, hated fighting, tried to keep it peaceful. She also saw a weakness in him though, she thought he was too passive. Also that he had a bad vice/dependency/coping habit/emotional crutch that he could not control made him less reliable than he looked. She may think he used comfort, pleasure, or escapism to avoid dealing with deeper issues. Still, she has less hostility here. This is an ex she can look back on with some softness and respect. Overall she remembers him warmly & with more respect than others, but also as someone who could slip into passivity or dysfunction.

Calvin Harris

cards pulled: tarot - knight of coins rx. media - mi vida loca, the birds. archetypes - prince, prostitute, femme fatale (shadow)

Taylor sees Calvin as seductive, charming, & kind of unserious & unreliable, he had the look, the vibe, maybe the flirting, but not the follow through. She sees someone who wants to be admired but also wants to get something out of every interaction. Major lazy boyfriend energy or “talks a good game but doesn’t build anything.” She might feel like he wasn’t fully committed, wasn’t dependable, or just moved in a sketchy way that made her feel like she was waiting on him. He was promising stability but not actually delivering it. She doesn’t hate him, but she doesn’t take him seriously as a person at all. She likely thinks he was fun & hot to her at the time but not safe & she probably believes he had wandering attention or couldn’t stay loyal. He added unnecessary drama to her life & made a lot of weird impulsive decisions.

Harry Styles

card pulled: tarot: ten of wands rx, the devil rx. media: britney spears. archetypes: goddess, gambler, pioneer (shadow)

Taylor sees Harry as someone she had to detox from. She thinks the connection was addictive or unhealthy even if it was exciting. She thinks Harry was liberating for her but unstable. She felt adored & elevated with him, like he made her feel powerful & sexy. She likely relief after it ended & she finally got over him, like she was carrying too much & letting it go felt like breathing again. She definitely associates him with dropping a burden & breaking an attachment, even if it was hard. She may see him as fun & risky, like someone who pushed boundaries, but also someone who wasn’t good for her stability. There was big mood swings and impulsive decisions made with him. Intense emotional highs and lows, feeling pushed or overwhelmed, at the edge of a break down. She doesn’t necessarily think he’s evil, she just thinks he was a bad habit for her.

Jake Gyllenhaal

cards pulled: tarot - ten of coins rx, the star rx. media - selena. archetypes - rebel, king, mother

Taylor sees Jake as a sad story for her. She thinks he had leader energy & a strong personality, but couldn’t actually provide for her emotionally. There’s disappointment & disillusionment, like she wanted to believe in him and then reality ruined it. She likely thinks he had potential and maybe even good intentions, but the future she imagined with him didn’t happen. She can feel disappointed, like she invested hope in something she shouldn’t have & didn’t get the payoff, which is especially sad since it looks like she ended up taking care of him or managing him. She still thinks about what it could have been, but more in a disappointed & let down way than a romantic way.

Taylor Lautner

cards pulled: tarot - the hierophant. media - prince. archetypes - poet, beggar (shadow), seeker

Taylor sees Taylor as romantic and spiritually/artistically oriented, but needy. He’s the type she associates with expectations & a certain image of what a relationship should be. She might respect him intellectually or respect that he was consistent in his beliefs. But she also sees him as someone who wanted a lot from her emotionally, in an annoying way. Like he needed reassurance, validation, to be saved or a kind of devotion that felt heavy. He wanted a labeled relationship, commitment, or a specific structure. He was someone who was always searching, always talking about meaning, always a little restless. He’s attractive in her memory, like he had taste or charm at the time. Overall she thinks he was sweet and compelling, but she may also feel like he wanted her to fill a hole in him.

Joe Jonas

card pulled: tarot - emperor, queen of cups rx. media: notorious big. archetypes: damsel (shadow), student, guide

PILE ONE

The person that has their eyes on you wants you back. I keep hearing the phrase "breaking up a happy home."

This person could have a family already, or they could already be in a relationship. Either way, there is something established, something that looks stable from the outside, something that they have invested time and energy into building. And even if it feels wrong, even if they know they should not be looking elsewhere, they cannot keep their eyes off of you. There is something about you that has pulled their attention in a way they were not expecting and cannot seem to shake.

This person lowkey feels like they are breaking character with this crush of theirs. I do not feel like they usually get crushes this intense. It has genuinely been a while since they have felt this way about anyone. They are not someone that chases novelty or gets swept up in passing attractions. Whatever is happening with you is different. It has caught them off guard, and they are still trying to make sense of it.

This person is preparing themselves for a break up. I do not feel like it has anything to do with you. Not directly. On the contrary, I feel like things were not working for a long time. This relationship has been unraveling slowly, piece by piece, long before you ever entered the picture. They have been sitting with the weight of it, telling themselves to hold on a little longer, convincing themselves that maybe things could get better if they just tried harder.

I would be lying if I said meeting you did not have an effect on the timeline they kept pushing over and over. You showing up, even from a distance, has made it impossible for them to keep pretending. You have become a mirror, reflecting back what has been missing. Not because you are responsible for their choices, but because your presence has given them the clarity they have been avoiding for so long.

They spend a lot of time imagining what it would be like to wake up by your side. Not just the big moments, but the small ones. The quiet mornings. The easy conversations. The feeling of being next to someone who actually sees them. They also daydream about holding hands. This is so cute, actually. There is something tender about the way they think of you, something soft that they probably do not show the rest of the world.

The situation they are in is making them anxious. Deeply anxious. And they have realized, maybe for the first time, that the person they are with is not who they thought they were. For some of them, they have come to understand that their partner is a major source of their anxiety. The dynamic between them has shifted into something heavy, something that drains rather than fills. They feel like strangers to each other now. Two people sharing space but no longer sharing a life.

I think this person is coming to an understanding that things are actually done. Not in a moment of anger, not in the heat of a fight, but in a quiet, sinking way. The kind of realization that settles in slowly and then one day becomes impossible to ignore. This is really hard for them. They love being rooted. They love having a strong sense of stability. The idea of uprooting everything they have built, of stepping into the unknown, terrifies them. Whatever change they will have to undergo to get out of this relationship will be a lot. It will require courage they are not sure they have.

I do not feel like the person they are with presently is a bad person. They are not cruel, not malicious, not someone that set out to cause harm. It simply feels like two souls that have grown apart. It happens. Slowly, quietly, until one day you look at the person next to you and realize you do not recognize them anymore. That is where this person is. Recognizing the distance and finally accepting it.

They find comfort in their thoughts of you. You have become an escape for them. Not in an unhealthy way, not in a way where they are using you to avoid facing what needs to be faced. More like you are the light at the end of a tunnel they have been walking through for a very long time. You remind them that something different is possible. That connection can feel alive. That love does not have to be something you survive.

They are not ready yet. But they are getting there.

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PILE TWO

You do not know this person, but they know you. You could have friends in common, or you move in similar circles without ever crossing paths directly. However they found their way to you, they have been watching from a distance, gathering information, piecing together who you are before they ever dare to come close.

This person has been asking around about you. Not casually, not in a way that feels light or passing. They have been doing their research. They want to know who you are before approaching. They need to understand what they would be walking into, because for them, this is not a small thing. You are not a small thing.

To be honest, they want to make sure you are their type first. There is a calculation happening in their mind. They are trying to figure out if you fit into the box they have built for the kind of person they believe they deserve. And underneath all of that, there is a deep fear of rejection. It runs through everything they do. They are terrified of putting themselves out there only to be turned away.

There are a lot of insecurities with this person when it comes to you. They look at you and see someone who could have anyone. Someone who probably has options lining up without even trying. And they look at themselves and wonder why you would ever pick them. The question "why me?" is not asked from a place of humility. It is asked from a place of lack, from a belief that they are not enough and never will be.

They lowkey are playing victim, I won't lie. The energy is a bit off. It is giving manosphere, incel vibes. I do not think this person is loud about these beliefs. They are not the type to post rants online or argue with strangers about how the world has wronged them. But the beliefs are there. Quietly. Deeply. The sense of entitlement wrapped in self pity. The way they view relationships as something that happens to them rather than something they actively build with someone.

It feels like they have a habit of going for people way out of their league and then breaking their own heart. They pick the ones they know, on some level, will never truly want them back. And then they sit in the aftermath, nursing the wound, telling themselves the story of how they were never good enough. It is a pattern. A comfortable one. Because being the one who was rejected means never having to take responsibility for what you bring to the table.

That is one of the people that has a crush on you. I won't lie. You probably haven't noticed them, and it is because they are not your type. You do not gravitate toward energy that feels small, that dims itself before it even gets close. You have never been someone that settles for half lit flames.

The other person that has a crush on you is a fire sign. You can feel it when they are around. There is warmth. There is presence. They do not hide in the corners trying to figure you out from a distance. They move with intention. They want you, and they have a concrete plan. Not a fantasy, not a daydream they keep tucked away for lonely nights. A real plan. They have thought about how this could work, how you could fit into their life and how they could fit into yours.

They feel like you guys could be happy together. Genuinely happy. Not the kind of happiness that requires one person to shrink so the other can feel big. The kind where both people are allowed to take up space. And they are confident that they have the necessary tools to maintain your happiness. They are not guessing. They know what they bring. They know what they are capable of offering.

They could have a record, or work with the law. One or the other. There is something about them that lives on the edge of things, some history or some authority that makes them interesting in a way that is not easily explained. They have their eyes on you, and they are about to make a move. Not soon. Not eventually. Now. They are done waiting.

I would strongly encourage you to entertain this energy instead. No one deserves an insecure partner. It always turns the relationship sour. The constant need for reassurance, the quiet resentment that builds when you cannot fix something that was broken long before you arrived, the way their lack of self worth becomes something you are expected to carry. It is exhausting. And it never ends well.

This other person is far from insecure. They know their worth. Not in a loud, arrogant way, but in a quiet, settled way. They are confident in their ability to provide for your happiness. Not because they think they are perfect, but because they know they are willing to show up. And that makes all the difference.

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PILE THREE

You were right.

Whatever was said between you and this person, whatever they refused to believe or admit when it came to their own fault, they are now more than aware of how right you were. It sits with them now in a way it never did before. The truth you tried to show them has finally settled in, and they can no longer pretend otherwise.

This person wishes they could change reality to one where you two are on good terms. Not just okay, but truly connected again the way you once were. They replay things in their head constantly, wondering how things got to this point, wondering if there was a moment they could have done something differently. They feel almost desperate when it comes to any hope of the two of you reuniting. It lives in the back of their mind, always there, never fully leaving them alone.

They would hate for you to know this, but they have actually cried about this situation. More than once. They have sat with the weight of how things stand between you, and it has broken them in ways they never expected. The silence between you has become louder than any argument ever was.

It doesn't even feel like your connection is in limbo anymore. Limbo at least holds the possibility of something being resolved. This just feels like you are gone. Completely. And planning on constructing a life far away from them, a life they are not part of and likely never will be.

I hear this quote from Nancy in the movie The Craft:

"You don't even exist to me! You don't exist! You are nothing! You are shit! You don't exist."

That is the energy they are sitting with now. Not because that is how they feel about you, but because that is how they imagine you feel about them. They believe you have erased them completely, and the thought of it eats at them.

You definitely decided to let go of this person. That decision was made, and you have not looked back. And for them, it doesn't sting. It bleeds. And it has been bleeding for a while now. This is not a fresh wound. This is something that has been festering beneath the surface for a long time, and they are only now allowing themselves to feel the full depth of it.

Sometimes it almost feels like they get a spark of courage to come toward you again. A spark of hope that maybe something could still be salvaged, that maybe the door is not as closed as it seems. And then they go on your profile. They see how happy you are. How full your life looks. How you smile in ways they haven't seen in a long time. And they realize that happiness exists without them. That your joy is not missing them. And they feel it again—the void where the heart used to beat for yours.

This person acted out of impulse and immaturity. They let their ego lead. They said things they did not mean, or maybe they did mean them in the moment but never truly understood the weight of them until it was too late. And you answered with calmness and detachment. You did not chase. You did not beg. You did not give them the reaction they were secretly hoping for.

They hoped you were going to chase. They hoped you would come back begging, that you would show them how much they mattered to you, that you would fight for them the way they refused to fight for you. And when you did not, they told themselves it was fine. That they did not care. That they were better off.

But now, in the quiet moments when there is nothing left to distract them, they find themselves secretly wishing they were part of the life they tried so hard to make you feel like they did not care about. And that is the hardest part of all. Knowing that what they pretended not to want is now the only thing they cannot have.