Lov-ally

tshirt that says I HAD POTENTIAL

One thing that led me to detransitioning was the realization that I hated being a woman, I didn’t hate being female. I hated being made to be quiet, being always less than my male peers and male friends and brother, being sexualized from a young age. I hated being forced to wear feminine clothing that made me feel horrifically uncomfortable, I hated the idea that I HAD to be interested in sex especially sex with men, I hated never being listened to or seen as intelligent, I hated not being safe to enjoy the things I enjoyed (nature hiking, comic book conventions, etc). I just wanted to be seen as HUMAN. Unfortunately no pronouns will ever make the world see female human beings as actually human. But I don’t hate being female. My female body connects me to other female people, as a sister and a friend and a lover. My body serves me. My body is able to create fucking human life. My body cleanses my insides every month to protect me from infection. My body is a fucking marvel of nature. It never needed to change. I never needed to change.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m ever missed by those who don’t speak to me anymore.