Lost Mountains

“don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years

Don’t cry when I die, consider yourself privileged because I’ve died so many times and you only got to witness one of them

I don‘t really know what I want anymore. I don‘t know what‘s right for me and I‘m scared to make wrong decisions. Maybe I don‘t even know myself. I hate it.

Do you ever have this thing where one of your friends starts texting you but you’re just not mentally in a good enough place to socialize but you text them back anyway because you feel guilty but as soon as you start texting them you regret it because you just can’t seem to be nice enough or answer properly and you know you’re probably hurting your friend because you’re being cold but you just can’t filter how bad you feel mentally so you just start ignoring their text because you don’t know what else to do?

Pretending to be happy so I don’t hurt the ones I love is really hard. I’m tired.