WANDERLUST

You will always fall in love, and it will always be like having your throat cut, just that fast.

You are going to break your promise. I understand.

You’re lonely too.

It will stop your breath, how cruel I can be.

I am a demanding creature. I am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable.

I am your servant.

I crawl at your feet; for before your love, your kisses, I am debased.

For you alone I will be weak.

I belong here, and you will not deny me.

I say these things, and the world listens.

I do not tolerate a world emptied of you. I have tried.

In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold.

I will not let her speak because I love her, and when you love someone, you do not make them tell war stories.

I moved the earth and the water for you.

You will always run away with her.

You will always lose her.

You will always be a fool.

You will always be dead, in a city of ice, snow falling into your ear.

You have already done all of this and will do it again.

No one should be judged for loving more than they ought, only for loving not enough.

We look terrible to you, and severe, and you see our blood flying.

What we carry between us is hard-won, and we made it just as we wished it to be, just the color, just the shape.

There need never be any rules between us.

Let us be greedy together; let us hoard.

Do not leave me, swear that you will never leave me.

I am selfish. I am cruel. My mate cannot be less than I.

Sleep with fists closed and shoot straight.

I can’t abide a poor liar.

You look like a winter’s night. I could sleep inside the cold of you.

Oh, quit that. Blushing is for virgins and Christians.

Scold me; deny me. Tell me you want what you want and damn me forever. But don’t leave me.

Bad luck relies on absolutely perfect timing.

In his own country, Death can be kind.

What is the world but a boxing ring where fools and devils put up their fists?

Men die. It’s practically what they’re for.

I am no one; I am nothing.

Nothing in me was not made by you.

A revelation is always the end of something. It might even be cause for grief.

Just tell yourself a story that’ll satisfy you and pretend he told it.

Forever isn’t bright; it isn’t like that. Forever is cold and hard and final.

I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived.

If you want to kill yourself, do not use us as your knife.

What did I do wrong? Was I boring? Did I ignore you?

Don’t you dare speak to me like that.

I have worn nothing but blood and death for years.

I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me.

I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man.

I have learned to watch everything die.

I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too.

Are we not devils?

No one is now what they were before the war.

I have not seen you without your skin on.

Close up your head; your brain is getting loose.

We obsess. It’s in our nature.

I’ve a devil of a habit for being right.

In war you must always choose sides.

If you try to be a bridge laid down between them, they will tear you in half.

We are all dead. All equal. Broken and aimless and believing we are alive.

My old bones will follow yours soon enough.

It is better to be strong and cruel than to be fair.

I will see him with his skin off before I agree to fall in love.

After love, no one is what they were before.

I have survived, but I have not been spared.

In the space of one heartbeat to another I loved you and I was lost to you.

Frighten me, make me cry, only come back.

It’s not so bad, my darling. Being dead. It’s like being alive, only colder.

You’ll think it’s love, while he dines on your heart.

You will be so beautiful when you are old.

I cannot keep you and I cannot let you go.

You will live as you live in any world…with difficulty, and grief.

I look at you and it is like my throat being cut.

She said you’d come and I swore to eat your heart.

I still want to kiss you.

My heart is being cut in two. I cannot bear it.

What happens to anything beautiful?

“What are you doing out this late?”

“This part of town isn’t a good place to be at this time of night.”

“Now what’s a pretty thing like you doing in a place like this?” 

“You do realize what time it is, right?” 

“Where are you going at this hour?” 

“The sun isn’t rising anytime soon, you know.” 

“Do you know where I am?” 

“The city looks different at night.” 

“This street is very dark…” 

“Why don’t you come stand in the light?” 

“Are you lost?” 

“I got turned around in the dark…” 

“This isn’t the time to go wandering around.”

“Only fools and trouble come out to these parts at this hour.” 

“Looking for trouble, are we?” 

“A little late to be shopping.” 

“Just coming back from the bar?” 

“Think any of the pubs are still going to be open?” 

“Trouble lurks around every shadowed corner.” 

“Woah! I didn’t see you there!”

“Where did you come from?” 

“What are you doing here?” 

“A bold move to show your face here in the shadows of night.” 

“Go home.” 

“It isn’t safe here at this time of night.” 

“You’re being watched.” 

“What are you doing still up?” 

“Looking for something?” 

“I like walking when the streets are empty.”

“It’s dangerous to walk at night alone.” 

“I know where I’m going.” 

“The trees are kind of spooky…”

“Did you hear that howl?” 

“Was…was that an owl…?” 

“This path is scary at night…” 

“The woods is no place a __ after dusk.” 

“Oh you poor soul, wandering lost in the forest under the new moon…” 

“You can’t see the stars from here…” 

“This is the witching hour.” 

“Dark beasts lurk here. Be cautious.” 

“Stay on the road!” 

“Talking a midnight stroll along the beach?” 

“The ocean is so mysterious at night…” 

“What brings you to the pier at this hour?” 

“What dangers lurk in these dark waters, I wonder.” 

“You’re going to get yourself lost one of these days.” 

 send  a  symbol  from  your  muse  to  mine.  feel  free  to  combine  actions  or  add  specifics  even  when  it  doesn’t  ask  for  it  .      add  ‘  ↪  ‘   for  a  reverse  of   my   muse   to   yours  . 

HOLIDAY  :

🎁   /   our   muses  exchange  gifts  to  one  another .   (   can  specify  .  )

🍞   /    to  invite  my  muse  to  a  holiday  dinner  with  their  family  .

🎅   /   help  my  muse  gift  wrap  a  present  .   (   can  specify  for  who   ) 

🔌   /   help  hang  lights  or  decorate  with  my  muse .

🎄   /   decorate  and  help  my  muse  with  a  christmas  tree  .

🌿   /   our  muses  catch  themselves  under  a  mistletoe  .  

WEATHER  :

☃️   /   build  a  snowman  with  my  muse  .

❄️   /   play  in  the  snow  with  my  muse  .   (  can  specify  . )

💨  /   our  muses  are  trapped  inside  a  cabin  during  a  snow  storm  .

🐾   /   our  muses  find  footprints  in  the  snow  and  follow  them  .

✨   /   our  muses  watch  the  northern  lights  together .

🌲   /   my  muse  helps  yours  cut  down  a  christmas  tree .

🔥   /    help  my  muse  get  firewood  and  build  a  fire .

NICE  :

👀   /   my  muses  reaction  to  finding  out  your  muse  is  their  secret  santa  .

😷   /   help  and  aid  my  muse  while  their  sick .

🍵   /    our  muses  share  a  cup  of  hot  coco  .  

💑   /   propose  or  ask  my  muse  to  be  their  girl / boyfriend .   (  specify  which  . )

$    /    offer  my  muse  money  through  a  hard  time  .

🎭  /    invite  my  muse  to  a  christmas  /  winter  masquerade  .

NAUGHTY  :

💋   /   give  my  muse  a  hot  steamy  kiss  .

👗   /   my  muse  dresses  up  as  a  sexy  santa  for  your  muse . 

👅   /   my  muse  licks  your  muse .

🍷   /   my  muse  stops  your  muse  from  coming  onto  them  while  being  drunk  .

Angry

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing?”

“Fuck this.”

“Get the fuck out of here.”

“Who the fuck are you?”

“Fuck that!”

“I fucking hate him/her/them/you.”

“Fuck. FUCK. FUUUUCK!”

“Shut the fuck up.“

“Get your fucking act together.”

“Keep your shitty nose out of my fucking business.”

“Leave me alone, or I’ll fuck you up.”

“Get your fucking hands off of me!”

“Stay the fuck away from me.”

“Who stole my fucking shit?!”

“Who the fuck do you think you’re talking to?”

“You wanna fucking go, punk?”

“Get the fuck over it.”

“Where the fuck have you been?”

“What the fuck do you want from me?”

Sad

“Fuck life.” 

“No, I’m not fucking over it.”

“Why the fuck did he/she/they have to go and die?”

“What the fuck am I supposed to do now?”

“Why did things have to go so fucking wrong?”

“I’m gonna eat fifty fucking cartons of ice cream and then pass out and die like a warrior.”

“Try to fucking stop me from leaving my room. It’s not gonna happen.”

“The love of my life just decided that I was worth fucking nothing.”

“I fucking miss him/her/them.”

“Who the fuck cares?”

“All of this fucking shit was for nothing.”

“I fucked up my own life.”

“I can’t believe I did this fucking shit all over again.”

Insults

“Fuck you!”

“I fucked your mom last night.” 

“You’re a fucking asshole.”

“You just think you’re fucking hilarious, don’t you?” 

“Who the fuck died and made you king/queen/ruler?” 

“Go to fucking hell, you piece of shit!”

“Go fuck yourself.”

“Motherfucker!”

“Wow, that’s fucking small.”

“Get the fuck over yourself.”

Sexy

“Fuck me.”

“I don’t ‘make love’, I fuck.”

“I’d fuck you all night long.”

“You look like a fucking dog in heat.”

“You look so fucking hot right now.”

“Fuck–faster~”

“FUCK, I’m gonna come!”

“I’ll fuck you right here, right now.”

“Babe, fuck–not here.”

“You’re one cocky motherfucker. Let’s go back to my place.”

“I want to bend you over and fuck you until you can’t walk.”

“I want you to fuck me until I can’t walk.”

“F-fuck–please–~”

“I’d let you fuck me any day.”

“You better use a fucking condom.”

“Tell me what you want me to fucking do to you.”

“Do you want me to fuck you while everyone’s watching?”

“Fuck, it’s big.”

“Let’s make a fucking baby.”

Situations

“Give me a break. I’m in the fucking hospital.”

“How are YOU mad at ME when I’m the one who’s in FUCKING JAIL?”

“Help me set this fucking thing on fire.”

“I’m gonna need a fucking lawyer.”

“This is all YOUR fault, you dumb fuck.”

“It’s not MY fault we’re in fucking handcuffs.”

“Fuck, I’m so wasted.”

“What the fuck did we do last night?”

“Where the fuck am I?”

“Fuck. SHIT. There goes my car.”

“Wait–fuck. Isn’t that my house?”

“Fuck it. Might as well have fun, if we’re going to get caught.”

“Why the fuck do you have gasoline?”

“Where the fuck did that baby come from?!”

“It’s not a party until someone almost fucking dies.”

the thing is, if you just do stuff and nothing happens, what’s it all mean? 

and i’m sorry, but that doesn’t make you a bad person. it makes you a human being. 

it’s like what they say: man plans and god laughs.

hang tough. you’re in the home stretch.  

that’s right. now say my name.

kicking the hell out of yourself doesn’t give meaning to anything. 

but i want you to know that you can be open with me. don’t hold anything back, okay?

someone has to protect this family from the man who protects this family.

i got people who depend on me. 

it’s all about accepting who you really are.

you did the only thing you could. i hope you understand that.

there’s blood on my hands, too.

it may be awhile before i get home. i love you.

right from the start, it’s a death sentence.

nice try, asshole.

so from here on out, this can go hard or easy. so what’s it gonna be?

remembering you that way wouldn’t be so bad.   

we love you, and this is your house as much as it is ours.

is this a good or bad thing?

i don’t sleep at night anymore. i freeze, i freeze up. my chest gets all tight, i can’t breathe. just…i panic.

i’ll be asking myself that for the rest of my life.

you know, it gets easier. i promise you that it does.

what the hell is wrong with you? i’m really asking.  

you don’t give a shit about me. 

i deserve whatever happens.

just a couple of days ago, you told me that a man held a gun to your head.

you know, i really think that would be good for you.     

you’re on thin ice, you little shithead.

tell me one more time to calm down! come on!

if that’s true – if you don’t know who i am – then maybe your best course would be to tread lightly.  

i have nothing. no one. alright? it’s all gone.

if i had to put it in a word, i’d guess loyalty.

you need me to write it down for you?

the past is the past. nothing can change what we’ve done.   

just admit it. admit what you did. 

and a man, a man provides. and he does it even when he’s not appreciated or respected or even loved. he simply bears up and he does it. because he’s a man.

you know what i think? i think you accidentally told the truth.

shut the fuck up and let me die in peace.   

you kill me, you have nothing.

hell of a last couple of weeks. makes a man wonder exactly where he stands.

but until then, who’s in charge? me. that’s how i live my life.

i need you to help prevent an all-out war.   

just drop the whole concerned dad thing and tell me the truth.

you are tying up loose ends, and i don’t want to be one of them.

starters  /  prompts taken from f. d. soul’s work ,  between you and these bones .  feel free to change pronouns  /  tenses as necessary .

‘  the problem is you keep trying to use your eyes  ’

‘  how i soften when you pull me against you  ’

‘  you are teaching me to love  ’

‘  i will pretend that i have not already heard the question in your eyes  ’

‘  you perhaps will become my swan song  ’

‘  it is a very human thing to love  ’

‘  you are my good days  ’

‘  i have been loved dearly  ’

‘  i promise you will not always be this war  ’

‘  thank god for the stubbornness of organs  ’

‘  it takes me seven days to stop being in love with you  ’

‘  there will always be another day  ’

‘  there will always be another mercy  ’

‘  perhaps i will take up dancing again  ’

‘  what a pretty little disaster you will be  ’

‘  i am terrified for you  ’

‘  i will fold inside of myself  ’

‘  today i am thankful  ’

‘  i didn’t want to sleep because i didn’t want to wake  ’

‘  come and get me  ’

‘  i tell myself i do not need you  ’

‘  i think i broke again last night  ’

‘  i’m just trying to connect with you  ’

‘  you are an ocean that will perhaps never stop crashing  ’

‘  burn the house down in search of yourself  ’

‘  don’t you dare ever stop looking  ’

‘  i struggle not to feel guilty  ’

‘  you are a wild  ,  unkempt thing  ’

‘  sometimes it is a very sad thing to be human and longing  ’

‘  find that you are made of russian nesting dolls  ’

‘  the trees are always kindest with spring comes  ’

‘  teach yourself the hymns again  ’

‘  he is every amen i have ever laid down on lips  ’

‘  this life is an altar  ’

‘  i am sorry i do not have more time  ’

‘  there is a mountain in me  ’

‘  by the morning i am a triumph  ’

‘  there are words playing hooky in the back of your throat  ’

‘  today is by far the most beautiful creature i have ever come across  ’

‘  there are many things that will fit beneath your skin  ’

‘  forgiveness does not take up much room  ’

‘  some days you will breathe and it will be enough  ’

‘  you do not have to hold it quite so tightly  ’

‘  there is a prayer in me  ,  still  ’

‘  you scare me a little  ’

‘  you can be a good thing and not a whole thing  ’

‘  there are flowers in my chest again  ’

‘  the rain comes and sounds like you  ’

‘  i cannot tell you why i still trust god  ’

‘  find peace and build a home out of it  ’

lines taken from various characters and events found in  american mcgee’s  game  ,  alice : madness returns  ( 2011 ) .  feel free to change pronouns   ( he , she , they , i , etc )   &  tenses as you feel necessary .

“ another day  ,  a different dream perhaps ”

“ i know what’s real ”

“ i know i’m guilty of something ”

“ punishment hardly ever suits the victims of a crime ”

“ you’ve used me and abused me  ,  but you will not destroy me ! ”

“ i want to forget ”

“ it’s not a dream  ,  it’s a memory ”

“ how is one to find her way ? ”

“ i didn’t kill my family ”

“ i’ve not come back here looking for a fight ”

“ i’m not afraid to die ”

“ when you’re not on edge  ,  you’re taking up too much space ”

“ threats  ,  promises  ,  and good intentions don’t amount to action ”

“ every picture tells a story .  sometimes we don’t like the ending .  sometimes we don’t understand it ”

“ delusions  ,  too  ,  die hard with memory ”

“ only the savage regard the endurance of pain as the measure of worth ”

“ forgetting pain is convenient  ,  remembering it  :  agonizing ”

“ a secret is only a secret when it is unspoken to another ”

“ different denotes neither bad nor good  ,  but it certainly means not the same ”

“ how fine you look when dressed in rage ”

“ is our situation not dismal ? ”

“ every adventure requires a first step ”

“ only a few find the way  ,  some don’t recognize it when they do — some don’t ever want to ”

“ everything’s a nail  ,  is it  ,  miss hammerhead ? ”

“ forgetting’s just forgetting  ,  except when it’s not ”

“ a good guest does not overstay  ,  a perfect guest stays home ”

“ who benefits from your madness ? ”

“ what you claim not to know is merely what you’ve denied ”

“ authority must be obeyed  ,  or it must be overthrowned ”

“ you shouldn’t ask questions you know the answer to ”

“ make your survival mean something ”

“ memory is more often a curse than a blessing ”

“ the past must be paid for ”

“ you’re as randomly lethal and entirely confused as you ever were ”

“ return to whatever hovel’s home to you ”

“ your presence here is unwelcome ”

“ everyone here has an excuse for doing nothing ”

“ this world is not so either  /  or ”

“ what’s true of the living is often true of the dead ”

“ this life is full of random death ”

“ death is the ultimate equalizer ”

“ all have the right to be eaten ”

“ you’re not that good a liar  ,  and i’m not that stupid ”

“ your madness will be punished ”

“ come to receive your punishment then ? ”

warning: some may be nsfw

insp: x / x

❝ we deserve a soft epilogue, my love. ❞

❝  we are good people and we’ve suffered enough. ❞

❝ violence for violence is the rule of beasts. ❞

❝ when the weight of the world is on your shoulders, you learn. ❞

❝ will you fight? or will you perish like a dog? ❞

❝ welcome to my twisted mind. ❞

❝ i will face god and walk backwards into hell. ❞

❝ you mean the chaos emeralds? ❞

❝ i see now that the circumstances of one’s birth are irrelevant. ❞

❝ it is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are. ❞

❝ it’s not about the size of the dog in the fight but about the size of the fight in the dog. ❞

❝ pick a hell and rot there. ❞

❝ we are the timeline that god has abandoned. ❞

❝ do you think that god stays in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he has created? ❞

❝ every day we stray further from god’s light. ❞

❝ you’re about to experience the wrath of a god. ❞

❝ alone on a friday night? god, you’re pathetic. ❞

❝ you sit on a throne of lies. ❞

❝ they don’t decide who you are. you are who you choose to be. ❞

❝ thanks to you, i am saddled with unnecessary… feelings. ❞

❝ i survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me. ❞

❝ bold of you to assume i can die. ❞

❝ if you had the chance to change your fate, would you? ❞

❝ it’s a beautiful day outside. birds are singing, flowers are blooming…on days like these, kids like you… should be burning in hell. ❞

❝ despite everything, it’s still you. ❞

❝ in this world, it’s kill or be killed. ❞

❝ i’d sell you to satan for one corn chip. ❞

❝ prove to me that you are strong enough to survive. ❞

❝ i should have killed you when i had the chance. ❞

❝ god won’t let me die. ❞

❝ god gave me depression because if my ambitions went unchecked i would have bested him in hand to hand combat by age 16. ❞

❝ you know i had to do it to em. ❞

❝ it seems you were the one offended, my good bitch. ❞

❝ you will stay who you are, not a perfect soldier, but a good man. ❞

❝ YOU ARE ALREADY DEAD. ❞

❝ the risk i took was calculated, but man, am i bad at math. ❞

❝ this jackassery will NOT stand! ❞

❝ god can’t help you now. ❞

❝ i am a monument to all your sins. ❞