I wanna see the look in someone's eyes when they realize they finally have me where they want me and they can stop the act they've been putting on. I want to hear alarms in my head the I watch you padlock the door behind us. I wanna ask about it politely, expecting the same kind and reasonable answer you would have given me just 5 minutes earlier, only to be told to shut up and take my clothes off. Almost attempting to run away before I spot a taser in your hand. I wanna see that feral look in your eyes when you know im completely helpless. I want you to rub it in, I want to be taunted, I want to told how easily it would be to kill me, how stupid i was for putting myself in this situation. I need this before I die.