Longing.Marino

Under The Water.

I know life isn’t perfect,

You’ve got issues of your own,

issues you can’t seem to bring yourself to face alone.

You saw the fire from a distance,

but you let it go,

You let it burn,

now it's really gettin' out of control.

I even tried diggin myself out that hole.

I dont care what you think of me,

That shit will only get to me.

I dont even know when i'll be back home.

I'd rather be alone.

Your man likes to take it out on me and you.

I dont appericate being spoken down too.

If I have to start over,

Then that is your own doing.

Leave the bridges to burn,

even the step dad,

The step dad, the worst.

I saw it in the way he didn’t make space,

like I was always in the wrong place.

I tried to smooth it over

but it never stuck,

It's like I ran out of luck.

Clawing at my chest,

You wouldnt even like me at my best.

You've been blessed.

If you see me under the water,

just know that i'm not human.

Just dont ring the priest

when things get worse,

I left your house carrying the curse.

Take your soul,

do you follow,

Nah, you hollow.

The ghost of a black crow,

the no-name flow.

I take out the rest,

And eat the nest.

Your body submerged in the swamp, somewhere that cant be traced.

The forest, your restin place.

Something's pulling you deep.

You can't even feel your feet,

You cant even see the bottom.

Either way, you’ll cry and die

with the rest of ’em.

Boots strapped up,

I step on your face.

You’re eatin’ maggots,

how they taste?

You Spit ’em out onto my Chukkas.

You and your motherfuckers,

more like a bunch of suckers.

Nosferatu, leave a shadow hanging over you.

Bitch you know it's true,

You be left hanging in pain, and I’m on the sidelines,

laughing in the rain.

Come to collect all of my debt.

Better show some respect.

Listen to the pine trees sway,

That's where the spirits stay.

Why you prayin?

Soon enough that's where you be layin.

No more Mr nice guy,

If you see me under the water,

just know that i'm not human.

I'm just losing my faith in humanity,

I guess we're gonna miss the good old days.

"What?"

good old days.

Hold your people while they're near,

Speak the words they need to hear.

One day silence fills the room,

Flowers grow where memories bloom. 🌹

All I gotta do is spit on this page.

I'ma pay my fuckin dues,

Walk towards my destiny with holes in my shoes.

Heart full of scars, but I still refuse,

To let this cold world decide what I should lose.

I'm very overwhelmed,

I'm very high.

Toxic people all around me,

But I'm looking them straight in the eye.

I'm hot, I'm cold,

I'm frozen to death.

Lost inside my own mind,

Choking on every breath.

The years may fade,

the seasons will turn,

But hearts remember what they learn.

life is brief, a passing flame,

love can outlive any name.

Everything they told me not to do, fuck that.

Life comes swinging, I'm swinging right back.

I'ma put my heart and soul in this shit.

They said I'd never make it,

watch me flip the script.

writing about my feelings

'cause I can't find no antidote.

Sick of hearing bad news on the TV,

but I can't find the dam remote.

Guess it's easier to look the other way.

I'm in this Bitch,

Sing this to your Bitch.

I dont sniff coke,

but I blow stardust.

I dont give a dam,

I sell it by the gram.

Spittin’ out the fuckin' barrel,

born wild, heart feral.

Why do you think i'm out here actin crazy.

Knock, knock, I’m knocking down your door,

‘Cause opportunity keeps knocking more.

You gotta let that bitch in, for sure.

Litt vibes forever,

Thats what I offer,

A once in a life time guarantee,

Lifes like a drug,

and it feels like I’m on ecstasy.

Know i'm different.

Long hair, I dont care,

The boy got swagger,

But I'm nothing like these other motherfucka's.

Yeah, I'm on another level, but you still dont get it.

You just say you do,

Like a lame would do.

Same old bitch, stuck up.

Young me a fuck up,

Now I pull a truck up.

You dont even get it,

you on that slow shit

Pull up in it, they like "oh shit"

You can hear my engine roar at night time,

Aint no blocking my shine.

wanna hate? Have a nice time.

My masculinity is never peformative,

That mean, I do what you pretend to do.

I'm not trying to start shit with you.

Aint nothing new,

I've seen it all before,

I’m breaking through the motherfuckin floor,

Dont try to fuck around, because I be long gone like the reeper.

It'll all be over 'before it even started.

The future of the World,

will it crash and burn?

Dragging us back to the Great Depression,

till we’re just ash in the urn.

I refuse to be a victim of this mental prison.

I'm tearing down every wall, bitch.

Tonight I can't sleep livin' in constant anxiety,

I get too emotional about life.

I'm too young to feel this old,

But life hit hard,

and the nights got cold.

Colder than the Glacier.

Stuck in my own head, in ways, I can’t report.

It makes me feel sad, that I tried, and I still fell short.

Got the world on my back,

And the weight so heavy,

I’m just tryna take it steady.

Will this storm pass?

The fuck, if I know.

Think I got it all together,

Or Is it just for show?

I can hear my thoughts clear,

I can hear who's not here.

If I could just wish upon a star tonight,

I’d bottle up the feeling of home,

And just to sip it when I’m alone.

I aint putting up a front, like most do.

Everytime I bleed it onto the page,

I wear my heart on my sleeve.

I just wanna find my way to heaven,

then I never wanna leave.

I think I broke my damned heart.

Now I play the pain like it's art.

lost in thoughts I can’t outsmart,

I just wanna do my part.

hear what I’m tryin to say,

beneath all the noise.

if you feel like me,

then this one’s for you.

less of the labels,

just a different view.

My thinking can be a bit scattered

and non-linear,

But it's alway's how i've been,

Before I fall asleep, I beg God,

I ain't up to the test.

I just wanna lay my head

down an rest.

So if there's a chance,

even a small chance,

The man up there is listening to me,

Try lessening the heartache of ADHD.

My temper tantrums are valid,

but what am I gonna do then?

Let the anger take the wheel

and spend my life in the pen?

I ain't bluffing when I say,

I'm taking my prescription if it's a stressful day,

Make those motherfuckin blues fly, fly away.

what a hopeless place i'm in.

What you call a sin, I call part of my day.

I ain't quitting, there's no way,

I'll make it back to heaven some day.

Standing on the edge of the Abyss,

looking down and contemplating the fall.

Looking at everyone like I never really knew them at all.

As the rain taps on the gutter.

My words start to stutter,

How many times have I got to fucking say,

It aint going in,

i'll go again another day.

Losing your pateince,

And to be honest I dont blame you.

Don't count on me,

there's something missin,

I have a problem,

I don't think I listen.

Voices echo in my head,

sayin’ I ain’t built for this shit.

Pour a little for the dramatics,

I light it up and take a hit,

Attention that I crave,

Don't tell me to behave.

Every emotion automatic,

I don’t even question it.

M.

(Welcome To England)

Stop dreaming,

people who usually say that are blaspheming.

They're usually working the 9 to 5 labour.

They’ve all got a bills to pay and a fever for the flavour.

You can see them all bitching at the bar, talking about the rich and the poor.

Life isn't perfect at all,

So they all drink alcohol and take antidepressants.

Now everyone's stressed,

soon there'll be no NHS.

Welcome to the new age of Britian.

The streets talk louder than the Commons ever could,

'Cause no one's ever listened,

when we’ve spoken like we should!

The Police raise these difficult questions,

about justice and wrong directions,

Was that young boy guilty?

Cause I witnessed the officer hurt him.

He yelled for help, but the copper deserted him.

I guess we've all finally realized,

How fast life can be compromised.

Yesterday he was here.

Today he's gone.

The world didn't even stop.

It just carried on.

What happened to connection and unity.

It's that world out there,

full of pressure and pain,

The government raising taxes,

making cuts, all they do is shift the blame.

The anxiety carries on.

Kids growing up with out a clue,

Got their whole life ahead of them,

And don't know what to do?

Politics with hopes and dreams of tomorrow,

I dont think they get it,

We're not the ones who're gonna follow.

It's not easy, no-ones gonna blame us,

It's the country that's fucked us.

I don't know if it's for sure,

but I don't feel so insecure!

Feels like everyone's got their own problems, even the country's a sinking ship.

This ain't the world that it used to be.

Open your eyes and you'll see.

You've got to do what you can do for the people,

Break down their walls and build them back up with compassion.

We don’t have much time, I ain’t lying.

Shout out to everyone who's trying.

Ghost Hunter

They tell me my house is haunted,

like I didn't know already.

They think I'ma poet, I'm a ghost hunter.

Marino does what they wouldn't let me,

What should I do if they demons come out and get me?

shoot them right in the face.

I got a bullet with my name on the side.

Let them decide.

Nobody loved me back then,

but now they relate.

Now they act like I'm great.

I use to be in the fields like a scarecrow,

Stiching myself back together.

Now i'm changing the weather.

Feeling light as a feather.

I could make em medicate,

Make em levitate.

When your favoured by God,

Your also liked by the devil too.

You go home with the guy who brought

You to the dance,

Dont take the chance.

Devil looking to take you home too,

You stay with him who bought you here.

This is my manuscript,

Pull it out when the candles lit.

Don't put my body to rest,

Everyday, trying my best.

No matter what the devil bring tonight?

I'm gone win the fight.

It's just him and I,

Demons in me,

they just multiply.

If I dont kill him now,

I never will.

Cinderella

She burns so bright,

When she's in the spotlight.

the whole clubs in a rush,

Everybody just hush.

I feel like a story teller,

Watching her dance like Cinderella.

She makes my heart stir,

It's no one else but her.

If I told you this could be the start of something special,

would you beleive me?

She's the only one who understands me,

She sees the things you dont see.

She knows all my flaws,

A day without her is my withdrawals.

Her love is my oxygen,

I get so high.

Not enough of her and I will die.

When I drink I tend to overdo it,

And act like a fool,

But when I’m with you,

I don’t have to act cool.

She's the only one who understands me,

And she protects my mental health.

She always lets me be myself.

Felt passion from the start,

now your name imprinted on my heart.

As long as I’m alive,

we gon’ fly,

'Cross the Atlantic,

that plane ticket says i'm romantic.

I would buy red roses,

but it's already tatted on my arm for you.

You aint gonna never meet another one like me.

Although time may take us into different time zones,

Distance could never come between us.

She trynna pick apart my brain, but I’m mentally insane.

Trying to find peace in the pouring rain.

She can't understand me,

it's gonna take time to understand me.

keep movin on, I'm not the one.

My sqaud, know what I be on,

Hearts get broken when i'm on one.

I pull up to the party,

Her face looks like she's just seen a ghost.

She think she know me, but I know her the most.

She said she couldn't wait to see the back of me,

She said she couldn't save me,

Fuck her - I just needed her to see me,

And not look away.

The wind blows,

and i'm gone forever.

My intake of alcohol is steep,

Just a couple of bad habits

that I choose to keep.

If you listen to me well,

my words hit deep.

The train never stopped.

Never had time to unpack my trauma.

I ran away from my momma.

Should have known better,

that I were gonna make you cry.

Can't believe I even said it.

Didn't even regret it.

You comfort people.

I make them feel seen,

even if it hurts.

No sympathy,

'Cause I was out of line.

If hate’s all you’ve got left for me,

That's fine.

I can live with that.

I know, I come with a whole bunch of stress.

Nobody left for me to even try and impress.

You can see the mess,

Breaking down all the layers in my head,

All the things I shouldn't of said.

Not looking down on other people because they seem different, or from another background.

SOCIAL EQUALITY = people should be treated as equally valuable members of society. 💯

Fuck it, I’ll be myself.

CARRIE

Like Carrie at the prom,

I let the whole room burn,

Funny how the ones you love

wait to see your turn.

You’re all gonna laugh,

But fuck it,

I turn the whole place into a bloodbath.

You do the math.

Spread fire to the town while they’re watching me crack,

Too many people in your life just hold you back.

They don’t wanna see you win,

Don’t wanna see you rise,

So they feed you doubt instead of helping you survive.

They’d rather keep you stuck,

I pay ‘em no mind and hit ‘em with a Mack Truck.

How you gonna throw me under the bus,

I was always there for the both of us.

I didn't wanna have to drop shit,

But I turn the whole place into a Moshpit,

Got Carrie with me,

and we mobbing.

We pulling off in them hearses,

and you sobbing.

I keep it real while you fake,

That's why I'm great.

When I die I'ma stop,

'Til then, bitch,

The truth gets dropped,

and it comes at a heavy price.

No one's gonna take my happiness away from me.

No ones gonna take my soul.

Can I be for real?

This is how I feel.

I aint unlocking my superpowers unless I have to.

They say Marino the god of making poems that people relate too,

Like he reached inside souls and spoke what they go through.

patiently waitin for my powers to kick in,

I count to ten,

Ohhh as I slip into your skin,

hear your thoughts like they’re my sin.

Bodies levitate to the ceiling,

when the kid walks in.

Stop fucking with me.

Trying to translate my thoughts to words,

But nothings coming out.

Can't let another day pass me by

Without you knowing what I feel inside.

It's about time I let it all out

so I can finally be free.

I just really wanna help you see,

I never expected life to come easy to me.

It's not something you ever get use too.

Feels like I’m stuck in manual mode,

Like I gotta navigate the world alone

’Cause I never got the code.

Calculating how long to look,

How I’m supposed to react,

How to control my tone.

I over-explain myself so much

Sometimes I don’t even pick up the phone.

I’m just tired of seeking validation

And forcing friendships,

’Cause if I was really one of them,

I would actually check up on them.

It was one of those days

Where everything felt heavy.

Life’s unpredictable, yeah,

I keep pushing people away

While hoping they’ll stay.

But stranger things have happened.

How do you fight the feeling

When your mind won’t let you rest?

What the fuck you yelling at me for

While I’m banging my head against the floor?

My biggest sign of distress,

Trying to scream it off my chest,

All these thoughts I couldn’t repress.

All on my own,

I ain't doing it for the attention.

Ironically, I do it for me,

'cause it helps me regulate my emotions

When i'm just going through the motions.

Half the pain is just me judging myself.

Like I’m always on my own case.

Mind moving at a dangerous pace,

Trying to outrun what I can't seem to face.

How do you fight the feeling?

The fuck if I know.

I just medicate in all kinds of ways.

Like a bird, I aim so high,

Sat on my cloud, staring at the night sky.

Tired of wearing masks just to feel enough,

So if you stay, stay for the real me.

Then we can meet in the middle of ecstasy.

Now you’re in my world of fantasy,

Where there’s no fear — anything goes.

Lately, I've been on the brink,

Had to slow down,

I were smashing back the drink.

Catch the sparks before I sink.

I felt the passion from the start,

I felt it deep in my heart.

Why can't two people stay

together forever?

If you ever truly loved someone,

You never truly gonna stop loving them.

I know because I took out my ex,

And I wish I didn’t have to.

It's not a flex.

There’s no antidote for love.

That’s why I'm always fucked up.

I wouldn't know how to stop loving her,

even if I tried.

An my new girl,

She's like we could go far,

Nah, not happening,

I know exactly who you are.

When you step out your car.

There’s a version of me,

that stayed with her.

He still wakes up next to her every morning.

I wonder, I truly wonder,

if he’s happier than I am.

I just write and it doesn’t make it any better.