fate

Maybe we knew-

at least,

we knew.

and when the maggots eat my heart,

they will taste something bittersweet.

And when the worms enter my brain,

they will find burned thoughts—

thoughts of you,

so cold, so true,

the impossibility of you.

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As the wave of tranquility covers my mind,

My heart longs for the cadence of Your voice

While I breathe, hear my thoughts,

For You are the One who soothes my soul.

My mind cannot think of greater words to describe how pleased I am. Your grace is beyond what I could comprehend. Ashamed of my redundancy, and vagueness. But You knew my thoughts even before I spoke; You are ineffable. I hold dearly onto You, but You hold me more than I do. I thank you with all my heart, for You are my God. You have never left me, even I was the one who was running away. And at the end of the day, You sought me, and You found where I was.

I lit the candle

saw the flare-

and suddenly

everything felt

critical

Something magnificent, too deep to bear.

It touched my skin, soft and fair.

The day has come, the years draw near.

I was called, not to live in fear,

But to walk with it,

Whether the path is

vague or clear.

But everything is actually worthless.

I just need to think thoroughly,

And choose not to feel too deeply

For in this world, I am a mere traveler.

Let me walk with no regret.

Calm my mind with breeze,

And make my heart feel at ease.

Lying in bed, eyes shut, I pretend.

A time for my mind to wander,

Yet I yearn for rest, for thoughts to alter.

Feeling the lines inside my head,

Wishing to stop their waves, drowned in bed.

Stuck between night and day,

Head aches—there’s no way.

Put me to sleep, long and deep,

My mind is weary, counting sheep.

When the sun begins to rise,

The dream halts, I open my eyes,