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METAMORPHOSIS, 2017-2018

I say no reason because I don't have many memories/ experiences where someone has directly said it to my face. One guy did on the bus in middle school (either calling me a pig or making some oinking sound??). I recall that because I still really hate that guy lol. And I feel like contrary to the Asian mom stereotype, my mom was very supportive of my body image and never directly told me I'm fat. She always told me to eat more or encouraged me to eat more naturally because she acknowledge I was still growing as a kid. And my mom always commented that "I'm glad you're tall and strong". She DID tell me that certain fashion choices did not look good on me because I'm BIGGER. Which in some ways is valid. A lot of fashion is based on size XS-S. A lot of smaller framed women with smaller breasts. But I'm a solid medium and I have a lot more to work with in the chest area😂... and clothes will look very different on me compared to the model. But even though she never said out right "you're fat". I felt like she implied it. And it really wasn't until this past couple month like finding "midsized fashion" tiktok accounts (🥴tiktok) and my friend actually saying " you know you're average sized" that I realized I am?? Like I finally realize I'm kinda right in the middle of the spectrum. And lately when I look in the mirror, various body parts don't look as big as I remember.

Making 1 small change that can start improving your mood leads to other small changes. When I couldn’t make myself shower I would make sure I changed underwear every day. And then I started using baby wipes to keep myself fresh. And then I worked my way back to trying to take showers every day. My record might not be perfect but I’m getting better.

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Here’s some Hannigram/Interview with the Vampire AU except Will isn’t as much of a sadsack as Louis

My headcanon is that Hannibal is one of those vampires that was turned when he was real scraggly so he has to shave and cut his hair every night because it grows back really fast and he hates it until Will happens and Will loves scraggly Hannibal :33

Also Hannibal is definitely one of those creepo vamps that trims all a person’s body hair before they turn them and Will is basically pissed at Hannibal forever that he can’t grow his beard ever again

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