Dan Stevens

No do it, I dare you. Really? That just gave me goosebumps all over to hear that. Thanksgiving is such a magical time and well meeting them was magical. I didnt want to let myself see family in it but this past few months I cant help but see it and know better yet where I belong with the kids. You know and we've talked about it I never will try to step in someone else' respectful place but I have tangible and beautiful relationships with each of your kids. Good cause now the puddle is even bigger.

Hear my soul speak. Of the very instant that I saw you, did my heart fly at your service. It was the nicest day, it felt like kismet that we'd be doing the same thing, and I'm so glad we did so together. They might love me more out of obligation, but they definitely like you more than me already. It was something I was quite worried about after Susie and I split, that somebody wouldn't be interested in being with a guy with three kids. That's not an easy thing to take on. But I think because you met them as my friend, that whole side of it has felt easy from the off. There hasn't really been a "time to meet my kids" situation, so that worry was alleviated straight away. Speaking of the kids, by the way, Susie's said about them coming to visit me in New York for a couple weeks, since their summer holidays start at the weekend - how do you feel about renting a bigger place for a few weeks? I'm going to need a bigger bucket.

It be so romantic if I found it in the pages of a Shakespeare novel. No I can't imagine my future with anyone else now either. We really took it serious being those friends first didnt we? Im honored to have learned you as my heart opened up bit by bit to you. Im honored to know you also completely took the time to learn me. You cant do that I turn into a puddle of mud

Careful, or I'll try quote the Bard to you, although my Shakespeare is a little rusty - it's been a while. Yeah, and do you know when I realised I wanted more with you? Thanksgiving. Just watching how great you were with the kids, I fell for you slowly then all at once. Haven't looked back. That's okay, I'll make sure to collect puddled you in a bucket.

it is the best. i mean, even at events where we are all together, there is usually a million cameras around and you don't really get a catch up, it was nice to have time to enjoy ourselves. i am back at work, had to go straight to set. what about you?

Yeah, that's true, and it's definitely not the same. With a trip, we have a good few days to really enjoy ourselves. Same here! What are you working on? I'm in the new season of Dexter, so that's a lot of fun.

I also didn't do it for that... to singlely see me as your only future..but you know now you said it but my heart did go all fluttery. Am I? Well I have plenty more where that came from apparently.

I know, but please believe me when I say I cannot imagine spending my life with anybody but you. If all it takes to keep that reality is signing a bit of paperwork... easiest decision to make. Do you now? Excuse me if I stare at you with heart eyes the whole time.

Nope not at all man. Though hey it's new chapter for me. This is the longest time Ive been single since breaking up with Liv. Not hating it you know me time is fucking good

Is it really? Wow, look at you. Me time just sounds like you're wanking a lot, mate. Which... hey, not judging.

It is, I can pretend it is and we just bury it but I don't think that help us in the long run. I appreciate that you hear me and well nope not backing down now on what I want mhmm. Thank you

No, I don't want you to have to pretend anything, you're completely right. I think bigamy is frowned upon, and if I want to marry you someday, probably best I'm not still married to somebody else. God you're hot when you're so assured.

No it's okay. I guess Im afflicted with that empathy that understands it also sin't and can't be something that just flips a switch and it's not there you know? Again I don't think Im necessarily worried you'd go back to her ...I just think we at the crossroads of we can't go further than this till you figure that out

I get it, from your perspective I guess it's a pretty big deal that I'm still legally married. Like I said, it's just not something that's on my mind, but I realise it is important. I have to take care of it. I'll talk with Susie about it.

No we haven't..and let's be very honest Im not intimidated or jealous often. I enjoy what we have and you have the very unique ability to make me so securely attached I dont question it. I know that's a whole past maybe little present chapter of your life and I respect it..But when we do get thinking about the future it's frustrating feeling like there could be a ceiling on this thing with us.

I totally understand. I'm sorry, Liz. I'm sorry that I haven't even thought about it, I suppose I've always known that at some point Susie and I would set the wheels in motion and file all the paperwork. It's just never been the right time, and it's gotten away from us.

You mean also the woman who you are still technically married too. Does my jealous streak still look attractive now? Sorry but everytime we get into too deep talking about the future that huge hurdle comes and meets me. That's the flames.

Oh, umm... yeah. We've never really talked about that, have we? Susie and I are still married on paper, but it's been a long time since we split. I hope you don't actually feel jealous of her.

Well if I am honest I am alot worse when I am not worried about someone seeing it. Mhmm see your kids have, for long as they can speak, the reason for you to stay in line. You have no idea the fumes that are within me for people I know dont exist at this point. I can only surmise you want me to be jealous only to see this face when I am. There are bigger flames you ignore sometimes.

Oh of course, they get it from their mum, she was always telling me off for my messiness when we were together. Apparently I'm attracted to clean freaks? Maybe I think you're really hot when you're jealous, even if it's of somebody who's imaginary. Yeah? What flames am I ignoring?