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i think i might have some medical issue because i feel things that i dont know if they're normal (im not rlly good at getting my bodys clues so keep that in mind) but i dont want to tell my parents because my mom is going to say i need to exercise, and i dont want to exercise because im scared it might trigger me into having an ed again and it also hurts to move, so i'm not just being lazy. i feel like it takes too much energy to lift my arm (for exemple) or move any limb, like they are too heavy for me to move. i can move them, though. when i lift my arm, especially for a long time, it feels heavy and it kinda also feels like my hands are getting cold, like my blood is going down, and i feel dizzy. it even happens with my legs when im sitting. my heart races ( i have anxiety and its medicated, but it might be the reason) even when im not moving, but specially stairs makes it beat really strong even if its just 5 steps (and it happens even if i dont get tired when going up). sometimes i even feel like fainting when i have to do it (and i do it multiple times a day so i should be used to it). sometimes i feel lightheaded and its not a vitamin deficit because my exams say im not anemic and i even take supplies for vitamin B and D. my body is so heavy sometimes, i cant stand or even sit (because i cant hold my head up when i dont have where to rest it). the lack of energy might just be depression, but my doctor said i have healed and i believe her because she is a really good and professional. still, there is other weird stuff happening and i dont think it is from sedentarism.

yes im back

and i was kinda dating shauna

(the eye bags wtf)

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