Sesbian Lexi

My name is Lexi, but you can also call me Rae. I'm AFAB intersex and go by she/her and they/them pronouns. I'm 19 years old and my birthday is January 29th.

I've been diagnosed with ADHD, autism, and acute depression, and I'm working on getting a CPTSD diagnosis. I also have PCOS, which I why I identify as intersex.

I'm a polyamerous lesbian in a loving relationship with my girlfriend Skyler of 7 years, as well as joining Sirfluff's harem as his Queerplatonic wife (I have no idea how that even happened).

I am also a traumagenic system, but I don't experience fronting, I'm the only one that can communicate and interact with the outside would. The other's names are Glory, Abhor, and Cereb, and they're all dragons. I'll make posts all about them in the future, as they're quite complex.

Fandoms I'm in: Pokemon, Wings of Fire, Warrior cats, Forsaken, Blocktales, Okami, Celeste, Mad Rat Dead, Rhythm Doctor

Current hyperfixation: Forsaken (and Roblox in general)

Hobbies: Drawing, writing, listening to music, playing video games, playing piano

Favorite color(s): Brown, purple

Favorite food(s): Chocolate strawberries, steak

Favorite animals(s): Deer, rats, dragons

Favorite video game(s): Celeste, Okami

Favorite movie(s): Project Hail Mary, Big Hero 6

Favorite book(s): A Complicated Love Story Set in Space, Wings of Fire (specifically books 14 and 16)

OTPs: Nature Documentary (Wanwood x Vee), Double Doe/JohnJane (John Doe x Jane Doe)

Blog tags: #lexi rambling, for text posts. #rambling answers, for answering asks. #ramble art, for art that I do

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Noelle is Deltarune’s Chara.

Chara is corrupted by the LV you gain during the genocide route, convinced that growing stronger is a good thing, even when it’s their own family and subjects being cut down. They become nothing more than a game mechanic, a number going up, the sensation of growing stronger. They are no longer a person, but a weapon to be used, and when you throw them away, they lash out. Just like how you influence Chara to accept the violence, you manipulate Noelle into committing atrocious acts on the basis of “getting stronger.” “That feeling you get when a number increases? That’s me.”

By the time you finish the genocide route, you can’t go back. If you go through the pacifist route afterwards, Chara will corrupt it. Once you reach chapter 5, you can’t abort the weird route any longer. Chara will take your soul even if you deny their deal, and Noelle will drag you into the lake even as you’re begging her to stop. If you do the weird route on a different save, it will corrupt your other saves and it will know you have done the weird route, just like how the game remembers you’ve done a genocide route after a pacifist one.

Both Chara and Noelle break their respective games. Chara is dead, they aren’t suppose to be here, and yet here they are in front of you. But this isn’t really Chara, this isn’t the fallen human child raised by the dremmurs, who sacrificed themself to save monsterkind. This is the game of Undertale itself talking to you, using the one thing you haven’t killed as a vessel to speak directly to you. The game has tried to punish you through its characters, but you are a being outside the game itself, so Chara punishes you in a way that Sans or Undyne or Mettayon never could; destroying itself.

Noelle manages to shatter the prophecy, the set track that the game itself runs on. Two of the prophesied heroes are likely dead, the chapter 5 fountain is never made, there is no king in asylum or inferno of jealousy, and chapter 6 is entirely skipped. Noelle managed to kill darkness, something that shouldn’t even be possible, and broke how chapter 2 is supposed to go. You don’t even fight Queen! Now Noelle has managed to break the very fabric and code of the game, somehow managing to break out of bounds and escape the game itself, just like Chara accomplished.

Chara seeks to take control away from the player, to be the consequences to their actions. You can try to back out, beg Noelle to stop, but she won’t. You may have control over Kris, but you have lost control of Noelle. These are the consequences to your actions, and Noelle is the harbinger of your punishment, just like Chara does to you in Undertale. You sought to prove that your actions do matter and in a way you sucseeded. Things have changed, irreversibly so. But that sweet sweet freedom you wanted to achieve by breaking this game, the control you tried to reach for, was taken from you right before you could grasp it. Since when were you the one in control?

One could even say that telling Noelle to “proceed” is the same as calling upon the demon that comes when you call its name. What is a demon if not a fallen angel? But you want to know the nail in the coffin for this comparison?

This face… doesn’t it seem a little…

Familiar?

When going into Deltarune, I was confident that Kris was this universe’s Chara. Asriel’s sibling, the adopted human child of the dremmurs, wielding a knife with red eyes, able to confront the player directly and take back control from us. I still believe that, even after all I’ve said, but I interpret it differently now. Kris is the pacifist version of Chara, the one trying to save their world and their family, deeply troubled and even violent, but still trying to do good. Asriel says that Chara wasn’t exactly a good person in the end of the pacifist route, and Kris isn’t innocent either. Clearly they have violent tendencies, as proof by the egg rooms, but just like Chara, they’re just a kid.

Weird route Noelle is the Genocide version of Chara, the one who’s sense of self was taken over by the player and replaced by ever increasing LV, used as a weapon to destroy the game’s inhabitancies, and soon the game itself, and the vessel for the game itself to teach you a lesson. It seems that Noelle has accomplished the opposite, taking over the game to prove to the player they were never in control of her, try as they might.

Ok, on to the actual prediction part of theorizing. Deltarune takes a lot of Toby’s unused songs and repurposes them. Soamoton Neo’s theme is a revamped version of the unused full version of Power of Neo, the dark fountain contains Penumbral Phantasm, and Sumset of Seven Suns is older than even Undertale itself. I believe that in chapter 7’s weird route, we’re going to get a revamped version of Megalo Strikes Back for Noelle and/or Kris, bringing their collections to Chara full circle.

Now, there’s one thing that Chara has accomplished that Noelle is yet to achieve; destroy the world. If the LV you gained through the genocide route is enough for Chara to delete their own world, then who’s to say Noelle can’t do the same? She’s already broken the game, managed to clip through the bounds and likely end up in the Depths where Gaster is, who’s to say she can’t go further? I predict that Noelle will manage to break the game so much, it will fail to function. A fatal error that cannot be fixed that causes the whole game to crash and their world to cease functioning, damning her own world to oblivion. Snowgrave is fatal after all… perhaps this is in the form of The Knight, for those who like Amalgamate Knight theory. It would send the Chara correlations even farther, as Chara fused together with Asriel to become a godlike being. (Still better than Rudy Knight 🖕)

Perhaps in the normal route, Kris end up playing a role similar to Chara. It’s Chara’s memories and experiences with Asriel that allow you to save him, and Chara is the last person that you have to save. Perhaps it’s Kris’ bond with Dess that the player lacks that allows you to save her, Dess knight or not. Like Pink, it’s you and Kris working together that saves her and completes the prophecy, just like Chara, the prophesied angel if Undertale’s prophecy. Just like how Chara is the angel that saves the underworld in the pacifist route, and the angel that damns it in the genocide route, Kris is the normal route’s angel while Noelle is the Weird Route’s angel.

Shoutout to Katantuu’s video on Chara, their video is a big reason as to why I believe Chara at the end of the genocide route isn’t actually Chara but instead the game of Undertale itself, and I used their interpretation of them to compare Noelle to a lot. I totally reccomend checking it out! https://youtu.be/GS57LtDiN4Q?si=L4dWCbi8nPAiGKzl

MY GIRLFRIEND IS ON HRT!!!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR HEEEEERRRRR!!!!! She's getting the care she wants and needs despite how hard it is in America and how dangerous it is to be trans right now, I'm so proud of her she's so strong and brave, I'm so happyyyyyyyy! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

The devs have decided to decanonized the events of a render of Azure in his final moments with Two Time, saying that he loved them. I saw people angry, I saw people freaking out, worrying about if the devs were going to completely unsend their relationship and ruin what made those characters appealing to most of the fandom. Now, I think the post was very condescending and rude, and that the dev could have phrased it much better to make the message clearer, but I agree with everything said. No, when the post says "why would Azure tell them 'I love you?'" that doesn't mean Azure never loved Two Time, and saying the render was "glorifying" doesn't mean it's glorifying their entire relationship. I would agree, it is pretty weird to say "I love you" to the person that just stabbed you, and you probably shouldn't glorify RELIGIOUS SACRIFICE!

What I think this post is trying to say is that in the past, Azure's characterization was that they weren't upset at Two Time for what happened, that they understood why they didn't and wasn't resentful. Instead they decided to change it so that it wasn't the Spectre who influenced their emotions into being bitter and vengeful, they were like that from the beginning, the Spectre just gave him the power neccisary to rip Two Time a new one. The post itself says that Two a time did and still does love Azure, and that in the past, they had a very loving and healthy relationship. But it's the present now, and there's really no going back from LITERALLY stabbing your lover in the back. To me personally, the appeal of Azuretime is that they are doomed in every timeline. Even if they managed to flee the cult and have a domestic life together, something would have eventually gone wrong, and they would have broken up if he stayed alive. They just aren't the right people for each other, no matter how much they love each other. There is not a world where both Azure and his relationship with Two Time stay alive, one HAS to die. THEY ARE A GREEK TRAGEDY TO END ALL TRAGEDIES!

I want to throw a little headcannon into the mix involving all this, a way for the fandom to have its cake and eat it to. You see, Two Time canonically has schizophrenia, a disorder that messes with one's perception of reality. This comes in two forms, delusions and hallucinations. Delusions is false information someone believes completely as if it were true, like the shadow government is hunting them down, they are the president of the United States, or they live in the 1760s. Hallucinations are the mind processing sensory data incorrectly, causing someo to see, feel, or hear things that aren't real, like someone knocking on the door, the feeling of someone grabbing your arm, or the Hat Man is sitting in the corner of your room. Sure, Azure never did tell Two Time he loved them, but what if Two Time thought he did. Maybe their own guilt and desperate need of comfort scrambled their memories and implanted a false one to ease their guilty conscious, or they swear that they heard him say it. However it happened, Two Time is convinced Azure still loved him until the very end, even when they are staring down the horns.

Oooooone more thing, why is everyone upset about Azure's name being Aspen? I think it's adorable, he's named after a tree! People say that changing his name makes no sense but... his name being Azure makes a lot less sense. The color azure is a bright, true blue, but Azure is FUCKING PURPLE! There is also the gemstone azurite, that's indigo, but thats STILL NOT PURPLE! Was Soul COLORBLIND, they did this with Ceruleam too, SHES GREEN! Aspen makes much more sense for Azure, someone who lobes nature so much and is deeply intuned with it. Plus, it gives me a reason to ship him and Wanwood even more, since they're both named after trees, and both previously were named after shades of blue despite neither of them being blue.