alex

fitzchivalry farseer psychic out of both ends navigating the world like it’s his first day alive for roughly 60 years then fucking off for purgatorial homoeroticism forever in front of all of his children that’s so fucking aspirational you NEVER have to acknowledge anything that makes you slightly uncomfortable if you are good enough at #ignoring and suicidal ideation he wasn’t even peer pressured into a deathbed confession his nine year old daughter had to do it for him while a live studio audience watched from two feet away and he was half lobotomized and addicted to cocaine for the first thirty years of his life and he still had people lining up outside his bachelor pad to fuck him so he didn’t kill himself that’s INSANE.

the way fitz is told he will have a love weave in and out throughout his life and that they’ll be here soon and then immediately next chapter the fool shows up…. like… the soulmate-ism of it all….

the lion does not concern herself with papa

oh sorry was it gay when i hunted through a half collapsed frozen city carved into the depths of an iceberg to find and burn your body because i knew how you hated the cold? was it gay when i carried you through that icy labyrinth half mad with grief and fatigue speaking aloud to your unhearing ears asking the gods to let you laugh at me one more time? or when i lovingly prepared you for your funeral pyre and bid you farewell with my own name because you are as dear to me as my own life? how about when i defied the gods and through the force of my will for you to live, reordered the path of reality itself, giving myself over to your death in the hope of bringing your body back to life from within? was it gay when my soul was within your body, and yours in mine, and i finally understood what you said to me when you told me you loved me?

if my strange, freakish, widely disliked (situationship) best friend from childhood suddenly became a beautiful, charming, sought-after socialite, dismantling my sense of our friendship being rare and special and private, and also feeling that i lost the kinship of someone who is just as strange, freakish, and widely disliked as i am, i would also have a legendary crash out in the halls of buckkeep. would it be unfair yes. would i do it yes. fitzchivalry farseer i understand you